To The Owner of Honda Accord Living at SS7 Condo

I apologize for the sudden-brake

I apologize for the sudden-brake

I apologize for thinking that you are a road bully

I apologize for thinking so negatively about you

I apologize

I then realised that you did all that to let me know that my headlights were not ON!

again.. I apologize!

(I really do hope this message gets to you)

Sincerely,
The owner of the White Saga

Invisible

For years I've been living
Never have I ever had felt
Felt like I'm flying across
Across the sky, smiling

From short to long
I thought it was enough
From rough to soft
I thought it was enough

I'm passing by one-to-one
I'm standing side-by-side
I'm smiling softly, with hope
That I am noticed

The leader, I am
The friend, I am
The listener, I am
The lover, I am not

Questions keep bugging my mind
What is there that is left?
My physique?
or they are intimidated?

p/s: I am currently emotionally unstable. Don't mind all these~

My Last Night's Dream.

My Last Night’s Dream

It has been five years since we have known each other

We are friends, we are buddies, we are each other’s back

We have never knew that this would happen

But, it happened.

On 19^th July 2012

You invited all of your friends

To your old-shack home

Including your beloved girlfriend

We were laughing and giggling

We were all happy

You and I sat beside one another

Within all the happiness that’s happening at that moment, something just clicked.

Our eyes suddenly met

You were looking into my eyes and I was looking into your eyes

The laughter was still there but we know that something just happened

And it was something magical.

Firework sparks fly

The stars were glazing bright

The moon was beautifully-round

And our hearts just say “Hi”

No one realizes this was happening

But the devil in the shack noticed it all

She was your mom

You walked me to the door

We did not say a word

But inside, we were both smiling

I asked “What has just happened” just to break the ice

And you said “I think I’m in love”

The devil called your name

Asking you to serve the other guests

She walked towards me and said

“I know what’s happening. He has a girlfriend and it is best for you to just back-off”

It was not a surprised

I can feel my heart crumbling inside

He knew something was going on

He looked at me

My eyes start to tears

My heart was racing

My body starts paralyzing

And he came

He said “What did she say?”

I could not respond instead I ran off

He was standing with so many thoughts in his head

And his beloved girlfriend stood beside him knew something was up

Between you and I.

P/s: This really was my dream last night. I am not even kidding. This can be the most romantic thing ever or the saddest thing ever. 

Some people say that dreams come from somewhere either from the future or the past. What would this one be? Where is it from? The future or the past? 

Love,

Marl

Make Up Your Mind, Buddy!

They are all sorts of people you will meet in this world. They are bad ones, good ones, manipulative ones, opportunist ones etc. You will come across these type of people at least once in your life and that I can assure you.

Sometimes you are denying that you are surrounded by these people but the fact is, YOU ARE SURROUNDED by them. You just have to accept the fact. Sometimes, they are one of your close friends, sometimes they are one of your teamates, and sometimes they are even someone who you have trusted to be the most sincere amongst others. You just have to accept that there are the other side of that particular person.

Perhaps, the person is just someone who is so hungry of attention or it may be of some other reasons.

It is my utmost 'PANTANG' that when I have decided something I would have to stay true to my decision and keep my promise. There is NO turning back to my decision. That is why it is so crucial to THINK before you DECIDE. That is why people always say that you better think twice or even trice before you say something to other people. That is why people always say that you better be careful of what you will decide and you better be ready to face all consequences that will follow upon deciding.

When you say A, you are expected to do, act, keep you promises about A. You are not expected to act otherwise. You are NOT EXPECTED to act backwards that is to do whatever you DID before. You are not expected to take a step back! Look forward and look forward and go to that direction.

Do not act as though you are an innocent creature who knows nothing and comes back when NOBODY expects you to come back. It is very very frustrating to see the one person who I respect, once, is the person who walk backwards and not forward.

Just an advice, PLEASE MAKE UP YOUR MIND AND ONCE YOU HAVE, PLEASE STAY TRUE TO YOUR DECISION AND NEVER LOOK BACK! 

My Mom Says...

"Tak sabar nak tunggu Marlysa betunang"

in English

"I can't wait for Marlysa to get engaged"

p/s: and I am screwed!

What's With Your Arrogance?

There is ups and downs in life.

You are not always at the top and you will fall to the bottom of the 'food chain' eventually if not now maybe later. You will experience your downs somehow somewhere. The thing about life is that it will always tests the ones who are arrogant by giving them the goodness in life first before dragging them down the road to the most horrifying place where they will realise that they are not the best and there are people who are better than them.

I have not always understood people who are arrogant and snobbish. I see no point of being such due to the fact that you will never know what the other persons are capable of. They might be better than you in one if not all aspects in life. There must be something that they are better than you. Therefore, being arrogant and snobbish is not the way.

You will have to teach yourselves to the humble and down-to-earth most of the time. Yes, I did not say all the time because there are circumstances in life where you do have to act snobbish and arrogant. When? You will know when to use it when the time comes.

I have one thing that I am not in favour of that is person who is acting like they know everything but in fact they do not even understand what they are talking about. Never had the guts to ask. Never had the intention to learn and never had the urge to be intellectual. This is what we call, in Malay language, as Bodoh Sombong. 'Bodoh' is Stupid and 'sombong' is snobbish. It means someone who do not know anything but acts as though he knows everything and do not have the guts to ask questions. In addition to that, they are very very arrogant.

Another type of arrogant is when the person is having so much fun and joy flattering their titles to others. For example, he had just become an important person to a company and little he know about the actual fact on running a company, he showed-off to everyone about his role in the company, for example, a Managing Director. There is no need to show-off your title when you just got it.

Apart from that, when you are involved or about to get involved in a business or you are dealing with experienced persons, you, as the new kid, must be humble. You are not allowed (the rule) to talk BIG! You are not allowed to show your attitude as though you know everything about business. You are dealing with persons who have years of experience, a degree in business and an experienced accountant. You possess no bragging rights whatsoever.

I called these new people who are getting themselves involved in business as 'chicks which had just came out from hatched eggs'. You are THAT new. Therefore, you did not have the bragging rights. What you have is the game card to impress these people. Impress them, catch their intention, make business, make money and then bragging rights will come in. Even with all that, arrogance will not bring you far.

STOP being so arrogant and STOP being snobbish. STOP being the person who allegedly 'knows it all'. Just STOP! You are not bringing any good to yourself or other people. You are just wasting your time!

Love,
Marl

Get Ready to Pack

I would say this year is the year where I travel most. I've been to so many different places in one year and that is my first step in becoming the TRAVELER!

I've been to places which I have not imagined myself going. I've been to places where I have dreamed of going. I've been to places where I've been for so many times and I've been to places where taught me a lot about life.

I have said this in my many posts. I have repeated this a lot of times that I love travelling. Travelling is my one medium that keeps me sane. I am grateful that my family loves travelling as well and I could say that my parents trained me to be as such person. It all comes from how you were educated at home, right?

I am going off to another place tomorrow. Place where I have been to once and going again for the second time. Yes, I am excited but I know what to expect when I am there. I know how it is there and I know how is the people there. So, there should not be any hardship to adjust and adapt to the whole situation.

I would really like to go to someplace where I have never been to and I have no idea what to expect just like when I went to India. I did not have the experience being in India and I have no idea what to expect to happen there. So, I can just whack everything up. LOL. India has taught me a lot about life and I will never forget the experience. If God permits, I really want to go back to India to experience the life, culture, scenery of India. It was a priceless experience.

Apart from that,

My point for this post is in fact, I am not in the mood to pack my stuff. I was excited, I am excited but I am just not in the mood to do the packing and stuff. I have not even list down things to bring which is my normal routine every time I am travelling somewhere, oversea.

Going to have to get the mood now.

Love,
Marl

Why Is My Life-Graph Going Downwards?

As I read my previous posts, I realised that my English, previously, was better than my English now.

Why is this happening?

His name is Thomas McDonell

I just found out about him after watching the movie 'Prom' on Astro. 

His bad boy look and long, silky, shiny hair make him look Wuishhh~ 

LOL~ 

H.A.P.P.Y

Happiness is what people look forward to in life.
Happiness is what people are hungered for in life.
Happiness comes in and out of our lives.
Happiness comes in many ways.

You may gain happiness when you just fall in love
You may gain happiness when you achieved something in life.
You may gain happiness when people you love are happy.
You may gain happiness just by enjoying your life to the fullest.

It is said that happiness is sometimes cruel
because it gives us false hope
We thought that we are truly happy but the truth is..it's just a lie
We thought that happiness would come in our way but it never came.

Once we thought that we are happy
Once we thought that we have it all
Once we thought that love is there
Suddenly, it all disappear

How can that be?
What had just happened?

We laugh, we smile, we giggle, and we cry
for happiness
The happiest thing in life is when we are ourselves happy in and out.

Love,
Marl
(sounds like its incomplete. I apologize)

English

I have never been excellent in language

I have never been excellent in English nor in Malay

I have never been good in structuring sentences

I have never been good in grammar

...and without more practice, it just makes my English worse than EVER!

Moral of the story: I have to start writing again. More writing and more writing! 

As You Get Older, These Questions Will Haunt You Down.

21 years old

This is the age where the questions will start haunting you down

This is the age where everyone will ask you the same questions

If you are in the same situation as I am right now, you will know what type of questions are FAQ.

I, personally, am uncomfortable with the questions

They make me question myself

They make me question the qualities which I might not have

They make me question my own personal appearance

They make me INSECURE

21 years old

The year where others have their past experiences

The year where others have their 2nd or 3rd partner

The year where I get more and more questions

Honestly, the questions do not so much influence my eagerness to have one partner but they make me question more about myself

the word INSECURE comes to play

the word SELF-CONFIDENCE comes into the picture

the word NOT GOOD appears

When I am back in my hometown, the first question asked by the elderly is

'Do you have a boyfriend? No? Why haven't you have one?'

As I said, these questions do not make me want a boyfriend more but they affect my inner-self  as I will start to question my self. Due to this, my SELF-CONFIDENCE sheds day by day

The question WHY? WHY? WHY? comes into my mind.

It gets to me and it has knocked me down once.

I need to stand up straight again and held my head high once more and just hope for the best in life.

ALLAH KNOWS BEST!

Love,
Marl 

When Ramadhan brings us Luck

We have never expected that we will go that far. We have never expected that with so little time to prepare we would be able to get a place in the quarter-finals. Well, maybe it was just me. I did not expect that I will have to moot in the quarter-finals. Honestly, I did not put so much hope for the break-ins.

BUT

ALHAMDULILLAH! Luck was on our side.

Hello everybody,

Its been a long time since I last wrote a post. Kept on forgetting and there was so much to do during the semester.

For your information, my team and I went to Hong Kong exactly one week ago for a competition called International ADR Mooting Competition.

From left: Ellena, me, Hannah and Bam

Amongst participated teams were from the USA, Australia, India, China, Slovakia, Czech Republic, Austria and Hong Kong. We were the only Malaysian team participated in the competition and it was our first time participating in this kind of mooting format which includes both mediation and arbitration. 

Day 1

The Claimant had to go for the first round against Shanghai team, respondent. It was a little rough, as what they said, but I thought it was a pretty good round. It was just nerve, I guess, cause it has been a long time since they last mooted. But, all in all they were awesome and the judges loved them. 

Day 2

Its my round now. All I have to say is that I was so freaking nervous before the round because the last time I mooted was exactly one year ago which was in Law Asia moot. I did not participate in the IHL nor other moots so I was a little bit rusty. I had troubles during the training and I was scared to go for my first round but managed to keep everything to the down low and I managed my tension. 

The round went pretty well, I can say. Of course, Hannah was great, as usual, but I was a little bit shaky. All in all, it was alright. 

Day 3

Its time for the Claimant's second round. Both looked more confident compared to the first day. Both were awesome in the round. Judges loved them. 

Day 4

Its the Respondent's second round. My mood was a little off this day and I did not perform well. I admit, I did not do good in this round. I was so shaky. I was scared. I did not sound confident and I was out of my focus-zone. 

But, thank god. The judges still liked our performance. and...the most epic thing happened during this round where Hannah snatched my pen which I was holding when I was speaking cause I was playing with its cap. It was the most epic moment ever! The judges saw it and they complimented saying that that was a good teamwork. I laughed and tried to hide my face. It was good though.

After our round passed, we had to wait for the announcement for break-ins into the quarter-finals. I, personally did not expect anything especially when I thought about my performance during the rounds. I honestly thought that we had no chance advancing to the next round cause of my stupid mistakes. 

BUT

Our team name was called!!! We're in the QUARTER-FINALS! All of us were speechless. All the other teams were cheering, screaming, crying when they found out that they made it to the next round but our team....we did not say a single word to each other nor did we react to one another. We were stunned and speechless.

The most epic moment during the competition. The time when we found out we were in Quarter-Finals

After 30 seconds we finally come to our senses and started cheering and hugging and reacting to one another. We were surprised by the whole thing. QUARTER-Finals babeyh!

After the announcement, we had to choose whether to go as Respondent or  Claimant for the next round. We did win the coin-tossed and we chose to go with the Respondent. Meaning, I have to moot in the quarters.

Back home, Hannah and I managed to rewrite our points and brainstormed for new points and etc.

Day 5

Its QUARTER-FINALS day.

All I can say is that my performance was better than my second round but worse than my first round. I tried my best to answer all the questions but I stumbled along the way. It was a hard round for me but it was worth the fight. At least, that is what I think.

We did not manage to get into the semi finals but we knew and we know that we already did our best and luck was just not on our side for the semis. We were happy for where we were at the point. We did not even cry and none of us were really really upset. Its a lie if I were to say that we were not disappointed. Who won't be disappointed when they lost? That's crazy. We did feel upset and disappointed but we are matured enough to take the whole experience as a learning process and we did not get over-reacted.

Day 6

Went shopping the whole day before the final dinner at night

Dinner time

We were all dressed-up for the dinner and one by one categories were announced.

Our achievements:

Hannah Nasir, our anchor, won 5th Best Oralist in the General round

Our team, team 008 won 4th Best Team in the General Round!! 

WE ARE NUMBER 4 out of 20 teams!

Are you freaking serious?

I am still trying to absorb these facts till now.

Just imagine, if there was no need for quarter-finals, we would have been in the semi-finals by now! How cool is that?

Alhamdulillah. with all our hardwork, we got something in return. We are so thankful for whatever we have achieved in this competition.

We hope that we make everyone proud. 

with Professor George Barmann from Columbia Law School

I, personally, would like to thank everyone including the Coaches, Miss Ummi and Sir Irwin for helping us with all the trainings and points. Not to forget, thank you too to Mdm. Mazlina for handling our paperwork and budgets.

To my seniors, Fikie and Zharif for being there giving us the support we needed

and lastly,

to my beloved team mates, thank you for everything and love you guys so much! 

The Woman In Black

credit: blogs.thenews.com.pk

After many many months since I last watched a movie in cinema, I finally was able to watch 'The Woman in Black'. Coincidently, my last movie was Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows part 2 (in July 2011) also starring Daniel Radcliffe. 

This post I made specially for a short movie review by 'yours truly'. 

First of all, this movie is about a guy who has lost his wife during labor and has a son. He has to go to a place called Eel March to settle a few property issue. There lies a mystery of kids committing suicide or murdered without a murderer. One after another kid will die when ever someone sees the 'woman in black'. Apparently, the 'woman in black' lost her son who was given to a couple and was drowned and the body was never discovered. Since Mr.Kipps (Daniel) came to the town, many weird things happened. He saw the 'woman in black' and since then children in the town died day after day. The ending....you have to watch it yourself.

Review/Comment

The movie is very slow. I was not able to understand the movie until almost have the movie gone. It is not that scary but they used sound as their weapon to scare people. Yes, there are a-lot of shocking scenes which sometimes you don't expect that something will come up suddenly. The ending is hanging. It was not as good as I have anticipated. It was kind of disappointing to have an ending like that because it was not complete- or maybe I just did not understand the ending, possibly. Basically, I don't really get the whole movie. There are a-lot of questions could be asked. 

I would rate this movie : 4/10

In terms of acting, superb performance by Daniel Radcliffe - 8/10

Love,

MARL!

Judges in Life

In life you are judged by the people around you. You are judged at every second of your life. You are judged by people who you do not know. You are judged by friends. You are judged by families. You are sometimes judged by your own self.

We cannot run from being judged by people around because that is the nature of life. People will have the first impression judgment on you. Another thing that you cannot run from is the negative judgments by others. Well, most of the time the judgments are negative. In a way you just cannot run from being judged either by someone you know or someone you not know. Either way it still happens and still hurt.

However, people forget sometimes that they have to judge themselves first before judging another person. Before pointing all flaws of another person, you have to identify your own flaws and only then you will own the rights to judge another.

Sometimes people tend to act as though they know so much about you but in reality they might have got to know your name only and that only. Some people can make a judgment out of a name and appearance. Straight away jump to conclusion and it becomes stereotypes. For example, a boy wearing spectacles, shirt and tuck-in pants is viewed as someone who is boring and a nerd therefore hanging out with them would not be any fun.

General judgments can also be called as assumptions. Therefore, I view this as a rumour starter. It starts small talks between two or more persons which lead to making stipulations about the person that is assumptions. You have to remember that word of mouth travels faster than light and sound. The basic assumptions which were started in the first conversation will move to another conversation and it will go on and on and as a result rumour started. This is caused by judgment/assumption.

Just be careful before you judge someone. They might be better than you.

Love,
MARL!

I Should Have Said

Have you ever felt like you should have said A instead of B?

Have you ever felt like the answer should have been C instead of F?

Have you ever thought about what you have said and hope that you can take it back so you can alter your answer?

Well, I should have said more brilliant things but I didn't.

Patriotic, I Am?

I AM QUITE A PATRIOTIC PERSON, AREN'T I? 

(REFERRING TO PREVIOUS POSTS)

Its Me Again

Dear readers,

I am so sorry for not updating my blog. Sorry.

  For the past few months, my life has been interesting at first and then it got pretty numb and static after. I have always wanted to write something but I could not. I had no idea what to write although I have few stuff to share with you guys. The fact that I don't really have many followers made me realized that it is OK not to update. Besides that, I have been thinking on having a new blog which is only about travelling. My mum and I will join forces in doing so. Since I just came back from India, I thought it would be a good opportunity for me to have my first article debut on an official page for travel stories. Unfortunately, nothing is seemed to be moving anywhere at this moment. I am NOT busy but I am just LAZY.

  Since India I have been such a Lazy bum-bum. After I had finished working on my chores at home, I do nothing else. Thats how lazy I am at home. I was supposed to write for a national newspaper regarding my trip but that did not happen and again I was supposed to write for a magazine and even that did not happen. So, I am really looking forward for our 'Travel Blog'. Even that seems not moving anywhere. Well, that is what happen when you are too damn lazy.

  Moving on, my India trip was AWESOME! It was all I ever wanted and the experience is PRICELESS! I learnt one important thing while I was in India that is to appreciate every single thing you have back home cause looking at the suffering of the people there made me realized that I have everything that a girl could ask for (except for boyfriend :(..I'm joking) Looking at how difficult life is there changed my perspective on our country although not much but at least a little bit. I see why there are restrictions against free political campaign. I see why education is given for free and I see why we should be grateful for whatever that we have now. You can say that India has changed my love towards my country. When I was there, I was so happy to be there because of the experience and the beautiful and mesmerizing scenery but for the love of my life I would not want to live there. I am so happy that I am a Malaysian, for what its worth.

  I always believe that you will appreciate your country more when you travel to other countries, a-lot. By other countries I do mean not just a developed countries but also the developing countries or even the third-world countries. You might not like Malaysia for what it is if you compare her with a developed countries, of course. Know why? Because we are not there yet. We are still in the process of developing our country and our PEOPLE. However, even if you experience a different scenario out there in a developed countries, you will still feel like your heart is still in Malaysia, for me at least. I have been to the States and Australia which are among the developed and 'respected' countries in the world and I felt happy there. I felt secured/safe but I still wanted to come back. You see how people live then you will appreciate your life. I always believe so.

  On the other hand, if you have the chance to go to any other developing countries which are still considered as 'below' Malaysia (I am sorry for the term I used but I don't know what else to use) you will see how difficult their life is. Education is NOT free and never will. Poor people are becoming poorer. Children are forced to labor or forced to become beggers. In India for example, small kids and I do mean small are running around begging for money from tourist or locals. Not just that, where ever you go you can see at every street there will be people living by the roadside under the trees without any roof to protect them from sun or rain. They only had blankets to cover themselves up and thick clothes to cover the sand but sometimes they have only blankets to cover both themselves and the sand. Its heart-breaking to see all this but that is how it is there.

  I still do believe that the people who are not grateful for that they have are among those who have not seen sufferings of others.

"You will not appreciate what you have until you have seen how other people suffer to get at least one quarter of what you have" - Yours truly.

Love,
MARL!

Its Holiday

Dear readers,

After months, I finally start writing again. It has been a busy semester and a-lot of fun too. Tiring but fun. Holidays started on 17th January 2012 until beginning of March. So far my holiday is in good and fun level and perhaps it stays that way till the end of the holiday.

Many of my friends planned to look for part-time job and some even are looking for a job in law firms which are so good and I envy them.

Not to disappoint myself, I had the most exciting plan for this holiday. Wohoo~

For you who don't know, I just came back from Port Dickson for family holiday since my brother has one week holiday for Chinese New Year. Gong Xi Fatt Chai! Stayed at the beautiful nice cozy Avillion Admiral Cove, PD. It was an amazing experience. The view was nice and I loved it. The beach was OK and the swimming pool was good for children. What I love about the view was the yacht dock. I loved looking at the yachts parked at the dock imagining that one day one of the yachts parked may be mine. ;)

Well, it was just a dream.

The short getaway was such an amazing experience. I had to spent time with my family members and spent it with much love in the air.

It does not stop there. My next plan is the biggest trip I will ever try without the presence of my family.

Will tell you all about it when I have confirmed everything. As for now, I have not yet done my visa so the trip is not 100% confirmed.

What ever it is, I would like to wish

HAPPY HOLIDAYS AND GONG XI FATT CHAI!

Good Luck

Its Finals.

GOOD LUCK EVERYONE?

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