Invisible

For years I've been living
Never have I ever had felt
Felt like I'm flying across
Across the sky, smiling

From short to long
I thought it was enough
From rough to soft
I thought it was enough

I'm passing by one-to-one
I'm standing side-by-side
I'm smiling softly, with hope
That I am noticed

The leader, I am
The friend, I am
The listener, I am
The lover, I am not

Questions keep bugging my mind
What is there that is left?
My physique?
or they are intimidated?

p/s: I am currently emotionally unstable. Don't mind all these~

My Last Night's Dream.

My Last Night’s Dream

It has been five years since we have known each other

We are friends, we are buddies, we are each other’s back

We have never knew that this would happen

But, it happened.

On 19^th July 2012

You invited all of your friends

To your old-shack home

Including your beloved girlfriend

We were laughing and giggling

We were all happy

You and I sat beside one another

Within all the happiness that’s happening at that moment, something just clicked.

Our eyes suddenly met

You were looking into my eyes and I was looking into your eyes

The laughter was still there but we know that something just happened

And it was something magical.

Firework sparks fly

The stars were glazing bright

The moon was beautifully-round

And our hearts just say “Hi”

No one realizes this was happening

But the devil in the shack noticed it all

She was your mom

You walked me to the door

We did not say a word

But inside, we were both smiling

I asked “What has just happened” just to break the ice

And you said “I think I’m in love”

The devil called your name

Asking you to serve the other guests

She walked towards me and said

“I know what’s happening. He has a girlfriend and it is best for you to just back-off”

It was not a surprised

I can feel my heart crumbling inside

He knew something was going on

He looked at me

My eyes start to tears

My heart was racing

My body starts paralyzing

And he came

He said “What did she say?”

I could not respond instead I ran off

He was standing with so many thoughts in his head

And his beloved girlfriend stood beside him knew something was up

Between you and I.

P/s: This really was my dream last night. I am not even kidding. This can be the most romantic thing ever or the saddest thing ever. 

Some people say that dreams come from somewhere either from the future or the past. What would this one be? Where is it from? The future or the past? 

Love,

Marl

Make Up Your Mind, Buddy!

They are all sorts of people you will meet in this world. They are bad ones, good ones, manipulative ones, opportunist ones etc. You will come across these type of people at least once in your life and that I can assure you.

Sometimes you are denying that you are surrounded by these people but the fact is, YOU ARE SURROUNDED by them. You just have to accept the fact. Sometimes, they are one of your close friends, sometimes they are one of your teamates, and sometimes they are even someone who you have trusted to be the most sincere amongst others. You just have to accept that there are the other side of that particular person.

Perhaps, the person is just someone who is so hungry of attention or it may be of some other reasons.

It is my utmost 'PANTANG' that when I have decided something I would have to stay true to my decision and keep my promise. There is NO turning back to my decision. That is why it is so crucial to THINK before you DECIDE. That is why people always say that you better think twice or even trice before you say something to other people. That is why people always say that you better be careful of what you will decide and you better be ready to face all consequences that will follow upon deciding.

When you say A, you are expected to do, act, keep you promises about A. You are not expected to act otherwise. You are NOT EXPECTED to act backwards that is to do whatever you DID before. You are not expected to take a step back! Look forward and look forward and go to that direction.

Do not act as though you are an innocent creature who knows nothing and comes back when NOBODY expects you to come back. It is very very frustrating to see the one person who I respect, once, is the person who walk backwards and not forward.

Just an advice, PLEASE MAKE UP YOUR MIND AND ONCE YOU HAVE, PLEASE STAY TRUE TO YOUR DECISION AND NEVER LOOK BACK! 

My Mom Says...

"Tak sabar nak tunggu Marlysa betunang"

in English

"I can't wait for Marlysa to get engaged"

p/s: and I am screwed!