For You

2013, the year full of hopes

New hopes, new dreams, new goals

Honestly, I have nothing new

I didn't have new hopes

I didn't have new dreams

Nor did I have new goals.

I am just me

The one who don't talk much

The awkward one

The one who cared too much

When you...

Its been long since I first cared

Its been years since I first cared

But of course, who am I for you to even notice

It happened many times

...and I feel like I am used to it

But sometimes my self-esteem just crushed bit-by-bit

Because you left me hanging to think 'Did I do something wrong?'

'Did I say something wrong?' 'Why did everyone do this to me?'

'Am I annoying?'

All sort of questions come to mind

You might not see it, people might not see it

My friends might not see it

My close friends might not see it

But, I know. I know my insecurities.

It just hurts

When you tried so hard

When you tried to help

When you tried to care

But, people just don't notice

It hurts when I tried

It hurts when I did

It hurts when you didn't even try

Try to say 'Thank you'

It hurts the most when I care but you don't

Don't even reply.

Love,

Marl