Sunday, September 25, 2011

Get Ready!

GET READY FOR THE CHALLENGE!
THIS IS THE MOMENT OF TRUTH.
THE MOMENT TO PROVE YOURSELF!
GO! GO! GO!

It Really Is Hard Work

Nothing is easy in this world. No matter what course you have decided to pursue into you will encounter the hardship in the course. It is just the matter of you can handle the stress or not. No one can argue between themselves to say that their course is harder than the other because honestly every course has their own challenges.

I am now focusing on my own course as this is the only course that I know the level of hardness. It is getting pretty tough right now. People are starting to question whether this is the right choice been made by them. Some thought that this is an easy course as everyone who had no idea what to pursue will pursue reading law. Well, this isn't an easy one for you to just jump into without knowing what really is you are getting yourself into. Get it? There are some of my juniors who had no idea what to take up in the university will choose law cause they said that it looks easy. Well my juniors, YOU HAVE MADE THE BIGGEST WRONG ASSUMPTION ever!

It really do need someone who is very passionate about reading. If you don't favour reading don't even bother coming in this course. Reading is the way of life in Law. I was one the kind of person who don't like reading. It is really hard for me to even finish a book in two months. Hows that? Honestly, I started to finish a book when I have finished my schooling days. In my school days I have always cut-short meaning finished reading half the book and not finishing the other half. That was how bad my reading habit was. Every time we were given an essay to make, the comment I always got was 'Read more'.

However, these have changed now. Well it has to cause if its not then I will be in big trouble by now.

As I am in Part 2 this semester I realised that there is sooo much to do. Reading cases has to be my biggest weakness but it has to change. It is not just reading that is required in this course, memorizing is one thing. In one sub-topic there are more than 10 cases and you have to memorise at least 5/6 to be excellent in your answer later on or that to have a very strong argument. That is just for that one sub-topic. What if in the semester that particular subject has about 6/7 topics? How many cases that you have to memorise? Not including the general principle of law, the ratio decidendi. Furthermore, there are 4 law papers every semester. How's that?

Can you handle this?

I just want to say to those out there especially the post-SPM candidates. If you have no idea what to pursue and you are planning to take up law as the only choice because you think it is easy, well just DON'T. You are wasting your time if you think that way. You are wasting your time if you don't have passion on this. You are just wasting you time.

The best thing to do is to question yourself over and over again on what you really have interest in and if you cannot come up with the answer and still think that law is the only choice then think whether you are willing to go through all the hardships.

I am just saying.

Love,
MARL!

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Vulnerability

What is vulnerability?

Vulnerability comes from the word 'Vulnerable' which means weak and easily hurt physically or emotionally. (Oxford dictionary). However, vulnerability is the ability to show your weaknesses to others or in other words to be open with other people. You are more open to talk about your feelings, your weaknesses, your insecurity etc.

I saw the episode of 'Vulnerability' of Glee Project and I saw myself to be in the position at the time. Sam had problems in showing his vulnerability to people. He had problems breaking  down the wall in front of other people. Every one of us has insecurities. We have fears and all those fears have to be swept away and to sweep away all the fears you have to break down the wall of vulnerability.

I am the kind who will keep my feelings to myself. I looked like as though I tell everything to my friends but the truth is I don't. There is barrier in telling stories and telling everyone what you think. If I were to be given the assignment similar to Glee Project, I would have failed either. I have troubles breaking down the wall as I am kind of a secretive person especially when it comes to showing feelings. I have issues in showing feelings and telling people how down I feel and so on cause I used all my power to not show people how bad I feel at certain circumstances. I may looked as a strong woman but the truth is I think I would be one of the most low self-esteem person I have ever comes across with. I have the insecure-feelings all the time.

Becoming vulnerable can be a good thing somehow. If you are the kind who would go to people and say a kind of stuff that shows you can tell them how you feel, you can use that as a tool or a weapon to succeed. I truly believe that. People are easily influenced by feelings especially insecurities and unhappy feelings. People will automatically backed the person up who look as though they are the victim in the case though they might not be the victim after all.

Some people just have the gift of easily expressed their feelings to others but I can't. I can only express my feelings to... I think...in my life...around 3/4 people? Yes! Not everyone can know everything. Even the selected ones will not know everything. That is how little I can be vulnerable with someone.

Love,
MARL!

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Friends

There are many types of friends in this world.

1. Friends who need your help and only your help.
2. Friends who want something out of you.
3. Friends who pretended to be your friend when they don't really like you.
4. Friends who are hypocrites.
5. Friends who become a friend when they feel like they want to be your friend.
6. Friends who are simply a hi-bye friend.
7. Friends who sincerely befriended you.
8. Friends who point out your wrongs and ask you to make it right.
9. Friends who forget you when they have something on their own.
10. Friends who become friends with you only when you have other friends but when you are lonely, they left you alone.

There are many other types of friends. Friends to laugh with, to giggle with, to have fun with, to gossip with, to roll on the floor laughing with, to laugh at people with ARE EVERYWHERE! You can even pick someone from the roadside and they can be that sorta friend. BUT...

Friends to cry with, to have a shoulder to lean on are REALLY HARD TO FIND. You may think that you have one now BUT you might be mistaken. They might be just as equal as the other friends you have.

Love,
MARL!

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Back To School

Its BACK TO SCHOOL!

It is the first week of college. Everyone has the excitement to attend classes and meeting friends and lecturers. Students are excited to find out who their lecturers are for every subject. The new students are excited to know their first ever lecturer in Degree. Everyone is excited and it is good.

Unfortunately, I did not have the excitement. In fact, I did not feel anything about going back to college. My feelings were very neutral and subtle. Completely feeling-less. For people who don't know, I am staying home for this second semester. I have been back-and-forth from college to my house second half of my previous semester but as for this semester I am fully homegirl. So, when people were busy packing and arranging and sorting out their things, I was busy facebook-ing, shopping and walking around. When the others were busy looking for house to rent/ room to rent, I was busy sleeping on my own bed in my own house. The natural feeling of a college student was not there. I am a completely/ 100% HOMEGIRL.

I honestly think that this is bad for me. This is bad for my experience for the future. I am used to be so convenient and easy till I am afraid that I will forget how it is to be in a hard situation once in a while. I understand my parents' conscience but this is me saying from my perspective. I know that if I stay out, there are loads of money will go to waste. Everything is doubled if I was to stay out. Staying in saved my parents a few hundred per month. That is good for future savings but I am not sure that it'll be good for my experience.

Anyway, enough said about the home thing. Let us move on to classes, shall we?

Classes are going great so far. We had lecture for Contract Law and Tort Law and the lecturers are Dr. J. Sheela and Mdm. Nora J respectively. Nora J taught us before in Part 1 Tort Law and it was a disaster paper for me. That paper brought me down reaaaaaaal fast! Anyhow, I knew that it was completely my fault. Would not blame it on anybody except for my self. I was the one who answered the questions wrongly and I knew about it as soon as I walked out the hall. How silly, I know!

By the way, I feel guilty with regard to the position of class representative. I do my work as though I am already elected to be the class rep while the truth is that no one has ever elected me as the class rep. Yes, they shouted my name when the lecturer called for a class rep but that was informally. I should have asked them during class just now but I didn't. So, I don't know whether to just carry on with my work or ask them whether they want to change class rep or not.

Since the first day, I found that I have been eating alot and it has just been three days. I have to control. If not, GONE!

Before I end my post, I hope that this semester will be a better semester than my previous one. Hopefully I will throw away my bad habits with regard to studying. No last minute studying, PLEASE! Most important thing is that I really do hope that I will be able to join any moot competition this semester. It would be meaningful to me if I get to join one this semester. Unfortunately, there is only one moot competition this semester and with 14 mooters, the coaches are torn apart to choose who. I just hope that I am one of the 4 mooters. That is all!

Be cool, FOCUS, Be patient, Be smart!

Love,
MARL!


Monday, September 12, 2011

Debaran

Walaupun dikatakan tidak ada feel untuk kembali ke kolej tetapi hati masih berdebar debar untuk memulakan semester yang baharu

Friday, September 9, 2011

Dislike

I hate it when people is asking me to do something which
1. I AM ABOUT TO DO IT
2. I AM DOING IT
3. I HAVE DONE IT.

Love,
Marl!

Wonderful Meaningful Night

Hey all,

How are you all doing? Excited for the new semester coming up? I'm sure you are. Blurgh. I am 'pumped' too! YaY!

Well, for this post I want to share with you guys for me the most wonderful, meaningful night of my life so far. Three different occasions in one day.

This morning, Abg Ies messaged me and asked my whole family for a family dinner together with birthday celebration for my dad and my cousin, Kak Tt at Las Vacas, Kelana Jaya which happened to be near FAM field. It happened to be the night of a match between Malaysia vs Arabic FC and they were the Olympics team. I was so very excited about the match. My dad, my brother and I went to see the match while the others were ordering at the restaurant and waiting for the food to come.

It was magnificient. I had never had the chance to watch football that close in my entire life. Literally. So, I was really excited about the match. Imagine, it was not a stadium. It was merely a regular school-liked football field with no barrier between the players and the viewers. We were really really close. I almost got hit by a ball kicked by one Arab man. That was SCARY! Really. If I get hit by that ball, I'll be on the ground seconds after. It was a really priceless experience where I got to watch the Football National team up-close and Muslim jersey No.24 is so HOT while playing. *melts*

The second occasion of the day was the birthday celebration for Papa and Kak Tt. It was a last minute plan by my dear Abg. Ies. It was simple, cosy and fun dinner. Everyone was happy. Everyone had good food. Catching up with the family was really something that we need all the time. Spending time with the family really do make the bonding really tight as we go along. Don't believe me? Try it yourself. That was really really FUN!

The third one was a good exercising experience. My brother and I had an in-the-house football match. Literally. We played football in the house and that is the truth, brother! With the small ball of course. Well, I lost that match by one point, 4-5. It was a close game. We had so much fun laughing, giggling, rolling-on-the-floor. Really, it was something that I enjoyed most in one day. Looking forward for the match again. LOL.

I seriously love what I had experienced today. It was a complete day for me.

Love,
MARL!

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Approval By Mum

I got an approval from my mum to use any of her handbags.
I am so soo soo soo HAPPY!
Its not that she does not let me before but as a habit of mine I will ask before I borrow.
So, since she told me to use any of her handbags whenever I want that makes me happier.
She said 'Pakailah. Sape lagi nak pakai'
Thank You, Mama!

p/s: There is one handbag that I have been eyeing on. Watch out!

Monday, September 5, 2011