Standing in the Eyes of the World

Standing in the Eyes of the World by Ella

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What is LOVE?

"(What Is) Love?" by Jennifer Lopez

Na na na na
Na na na na na na
Na na na na na na
Na na na na na na [Repeat]

People told me,
I should write a love song
"Girl you sound so angry,
You could use some variation"
But I'm lonely
Negative relations
I've been hurt so many times
I don't have the patience

But I've wished for so long
For someone to come and show me
Lead by example
'Cause I've been waiting
I've tried every age
I'm so tired of the game
I wanna be somebody's girl
Would you show me the way?

What if I never find and I'm left behind?
Should I keep hoping for love?
What if I'm still the same?
Status doesn't change?
Gotta keep hoping for love

What is love? [x3]
Somebody show me
What is love? [x3]
'Cause if you told me
What is love? [x3]
I wouldn't be lonely
What is love?
Please show me
What is love?

I've had blind dates
Hooked up with some real flakes
I've gone out with church boys
Musician's are the worst
I've tried so hard
'Cause I'm just so die hard
Tried my best to play the part
Wish you could see inside

But I've wished for so long
For someone to come and show me
Lead by example
'Cause I've been waiting
I've tried every age
I'm so tired of the game
I wanna be somebody's girl
Would you show me the way?

What if I never find and I'm left behind?
Should I keep hoping for love?
What if I'm still the same?
Status doesn't change?
Gotta keep hoping for love

What is love? [x3]
Somebody show me
What is love? [x3]
'Cause if you told me
What is love? [x3]
I wouldn't be lonely
What is love?
Please show me
What is love?

Na na na na
Na na na na na na
Na na na na na na
Na na na na na na [Repeat]

I've been alone
For the past three years
On Valentine's Day
Christmas is no exception
Birthday's with naughty presents
Been back and forth, same action
I just need this to happen
I'll be singing love's praises
If you would show me

What if I never find and I'm left behind?
Should I keep hoping for love?
What if I'm still the same?
Status doesn't change?
Gotta keep hoping for love

What is love? [x3]
Somebody show me
What is love? [x3]
'Cause if you told me
What is love? [x3]
I wouldn't be lonely
What is love?
Please show me
What is love?

Na na na na
Na na na na na na
Na na na na na na
Na na na na na na [x4]

p/s: OMG. This is So ME and What I've been thinking for so long. LOL

It Is ON!

hey hi bonjour,

Some of you might know that since last week I have been filled up with mooting training and research. One thing for sure is that IT IS GODDAMN TIRING! Yes, I know what I signed up for and I know what would it be like if I join this club. The sleepless night, the reading, the giggling :), the research, the stress, and all the other 'the-s'.

I have no other social life right now. My only socializing moment is when I am in the moot court with the moot club members-mooters. No other persons. I am basically lifeless right now and so does everyone in the moot club. My life evolves around moot (chewah).

What made me say that? well, just imagine. I will be there in the moot court the latest by 11.00am and everything will end around 10pm. I am basically at the moot court for 12 hours everyday. So, that what made me say that I am basically lifeless right now. Its not that I don't want to hang out with my cousins and my friends but seriously I don't have the time. Yes, I can sneek out once in a while but that would make me have this guilty feelings and I don't like that.

Once I am in, I have pledged to be in the moot club and therefore I have to be committed towards my job in the club. I cannot back out in the middle of the work just because I have no time to spend with my other friends but think about it, this is once in a lifetime chance so should I spend my time with my friends or spend time in the moot court that might be my key to a brighter future? I am not discriminating or underestimating my friends but seriously competitions do not come often especially for me cause I know I am not good therefore I will not be joining or mooting for many competitions. Thus, I have to take this chance to improve myself and hopefully I can be a good mooter.

Some might questioned; why am I so into mooting and some might wonder why don't I have time for friends etc. Not just friends, I don't even have time for my family. How sad is that? But, I know what I signed up for and I hope everyone else will understand it and get why I don't have time for anyone else right now.

Love,

MARL!

I Feel Pretty Unpretty by Lea Michele & Dianna Agron

"I Feel Pretty / Unpretty"

I wish I could tie you up in my shoes
Make you feel unpretty too
I was told I was beautiful
But what does that mean to you
Look into the mirror who’s inside there
The one with the long hair
Same old me again today

My outsides are cool
My insides are blue
Everytime I think I’m through
It’s because of you
I’ve tried different ways
But it’s all the same
At the end of the day
I have myself to blame
I’m just trippin’

You can buy your hair if it won’t grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make-up that M.A.C. can make
But if you can’t look inside you
Find out who am I to
Be in a position to make me feel so damn unpretty

I feel pretty
Oh so pretty
I feel pretty and witty and bright

Never insecure until I met you
Now I’m being stupid
I used to be so cute to me
Just a little bit skinny
Why do I look to all these things
To keep you happy
Maybe get rid of you
And then I’ll get back to me (hey)

My outsides look cool
My insides are blue
Everytime I think I’m through
It’s because of you
I’ve tried different ways
But it’s all the same
At the end of the day
I have myself to blame
Keep on trippin’

You can buy your hair if it won’t grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make-up that M.A.C. can make
But if you can’t look inside you
Find out who am I to
Be in a position to make me feel so damn unpretty

I feel pretty
Oh so pretty
I feel pretty and witty and bright
And I pity
Any girl who isn't me tonight

Oh oh oh oh oh (Tonight)
Oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh (Tonight)
Oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh (Tonight)
Oh oh oh oh oh

I feel pretty (You can buy your hair if it won’t grow)
Oh so pretty (You can fix your nose if he says so)
I feel pretty and witty and bright (You can buy all the make-up that M.A.C. can make)
But if you can’t look inside you
Find out who am I to
Be in a position to make me feel so damn unpretty

I feel pretty
But unpretty

The Heat Is ON!

Hey peeps,

It was official yesterday that the mooting research and meetings has started! So, its time for reading and reading and reading anddddd reading! At first, focus on the topics then caselaws. Its TIME!

Love,

MARL!

Just Wondering

I am just wondering.

WHO READS MY BLOG ANYMORE?

Beach Life

Hey hi Bonjour!

I missed writing so much. Everyday I come online and I am sure will open up this blogger site but I haven't had the idea on what to write. The fact is that I want to write so much but I have no idea how to start. I have been staring at this blank post box for one week now. See, I am unemployed. Didn't know what to do. But, thank you to mooting I have something to fill my time with.

I am now quite filled up with reading moot problem and doing some research. Had some difficulties understanding the question and the conventions etc. I am going to buck up and really make the effort to do what I think I do best that is understand a question and get the right answer. That is a bit cocky statement huh? Well, that is a way to soothe your heart a bit. LOL.

The past weeks have been amazing for me. I love love love the holiday so far. Apart from the boring days at home with TV and no activity, I have always enjoyed the weekends. Only the weekdays that I am so tired of but me loving the weekends.

I went to the beach twice last week. The first was with my friends; Mayuri, Syahira, Suzanna and Saliza. We went to Bagan Lalang. It was a random idea by me and Suzanna to go to a beach to just hang out. So, we decided a week before to go to Sepang Gold Coast. Well, not exactly Sepang Gold Coast. It's not within our budget you know! I found out that hotel is a 5-star hotel and it costs the less RM 390++. So, definitely not our budget. We went for a day-trip sort of. Started with lunch at Fendi Ikan Bakar in Kelana Jaya. We loved it there and straight away to Sepang.

Of course, I was the one driving. I will always be the one driving cause I Love driving! LOL. Well, reached there and ENJOY! It was quite disappointing when I found out the toilet wasn't opened after 3pm. So, we were all stinky by the time we went for dinner. Another disappointment when the restaurant I always went didn't open. We had to eat at another stall which is nearby the beach and it was not bad at all. So, that was quite OK. We had Ikan Bakar Pari, Sotong Tepung and Tom Yam etc. It was amazing! The beach was cool but we had to walk quite far from the place we settled. Everything went on smoothly and hella fun!

Next beach was PD! AHHHH~ This one was a great getaway. This one wasn't with my friends but with my family instead. Another cool random trip. It was at Legend Water Chalets. It is actually rooms on water. We can actually FISH from our room. How cool is that? We didn't know about that before and we saw most of the guests came to the hotel must have brought at least one fishing rod. We wondered and we figured that we can fish from our balcony. YAY! I was so excited and my dad bought one cheap fishing rod for us to enjoy fishing. Bought the most expensive bait I have ever paid for. RM 10 for a 30gm bait. It was worth it though. However, the fun didn't last long as you all know it was a cheap fishing rod and what do people say about cheap stuff. They rot quick. LOL. So, it wasn't a good rod and it spoiled a little bit. Still useful though. We had to fix it everytime it went wrong and tangled everywhere.

Of course I was the patient one to fix that thing. My dad wasn't the patient one and so does my brother. I had to fix it. GOSH! I had to be really really patient with the rod. I mean it! My dad eventually caught one crab but it fell down because of the rod! Grrr. Later that day, me and my brother rent bicycle for each one of us. The next day my brother rent a KMX for himself. He had a lot of fun there. Though there was no beach but the activities that we can do there made it up all. It was worth it! A Hella FUN!

I love beaches. It calms you! I would love to have a house by the beach. I will when I have the money! YES! LOL!

Oh, I have a Strabucks date today. LOL. Bye!

Love,

MARL!

Love

Love is in the air

Everyone wants to be loved

Everyone wants to love

Everyone needs love

Love is in the air

We can't see it but its there

Its everywhere

Its for everyone to share

Love can be cruel

It may hurts

It may break you

It may knock you down

Love too can be the most enchanted

It can be the most magnificient

It can be the most magical

Of all things in the world

Love is magic

Love is pure

Love is powerful

Love is LOVE

Landslide Cover

I love this song so much!

So Over

You got something outta me

You let me open up to myself

You helped me to be sincere towards my feelings

You helped me

I am grateful that I did that

That's all because of you

I want to thank you

So, thank you

I wasn't expecting such conversation

I knew that it had to come eventually

I knew what to expect

So, I wasn't disappointed

In a way you helped me to be brave

You helped me to tell

You helped me to know

You were a good teacher

We end up as friends

We end it up good

You know what,

I prefer it that way

Anyhow, you too have opened up

I know how you feel

I'm glad you told me

Though I already know

I hope you will move on

Look for someone better

You deserve a nice girl

You deserve your girl

You were right

I wasn't in the serious mode

I don't think about the future

and I am not planning to

This is the time for trial and error

I don't think to be in a serious mode is the best

For me

I need to keep searching

I am glad we end up as friends

I am glad that it end good

I am glad

So, be true!

Love,

MARL!

Muar

Hey,

A total dilemma for my family this week. Either to go back to Raub for a 'kenduri kahwin' or to Muar.

After sweet talks from Hakim who really really wanted to go back to Muar, my parents finally agreed for Muar.

You know, I missed Muar so much too cause I haven't been here in months. I could not remember when was the last time I've been here. I think its like way before I started my first semester. You know how long can that be? More than 6 months? Wow!

I am not used to not go back to my hometown for a long time. In my school years, almost every 2 weeks my family will go back to either of the kampungs. Its just our routine to do so. Once I started college, from 2 weeks it became months. I really miss my hometown. I feel like I have nothing to worry about here.

I am just FREE!

Its just for a while though. Once I am heading back to PJ, everything will turn out to be exactly like before. So, now its time for me to relax and think nothing.

p/s: Muar=Food!

Love,

MARL!

You Played Games

You buzzed me on Facebook

and said Hi

I was expecting a brief conversation but it took forever

I don't know what to expect

So, I carried on

You asked me about my friend

So I thought, 'Hey, he really likes my friend'

But then you went on and on about relationship

Asking me whether I have fallen in love

You asked me who that person is

And I can't say

I was afraid to say

I was really afraid to say

I am afraid of rejection

I am afraid of disappointment

I have never done this before

So, I am afraid.

You lectured me about what relationship really about

You said 'Relationship is something to think about till the end'

I don't really get what you are trying to say

But I took it in

You know that you know who that someone is

I am pretty sure that you know who that someone is

Because I am after all a BAD LIAR

However, due to the signs I read before I really thought

'Hey, he likes my friend'

At the end of the conversation I can really feel that something is Off

I know that rejection is coming after all the talks

So, I braved out and just say who that person is

I want to know the response but I am just so afraid of the answer I might get

I am afraid and I am scared

I don't know what to expect

I know you must hate me right now

Especially after you called me three times

But, I am afraid.

Maybe tomorrow.

I don't know.

Sorry for not picking up

But, I am not ready to hear the verdict.

What A Month

Hey peeps,

Honestly, I have been staring at this empty post box for weeks now. I wasn't in writing-mood. However, I think my mood came back now and here I am writing again.

May has been great. It taught me a-lot of new things. Met many new friends. Met all kinds of people. Taught me how to ... and taught me how to be patient.

It has been a great month journey for me and I hope my journey will always be like this one. Although it might sound all fun but there are few downs I experienced in May. As an old saying 'There is always ups and downs in life'.

Firstly, the ALSA Conference which took place from 20th May till 22nd May. Not only I met and made friends with law students from other universities, I also made friends with my own faculty student, the seniors more specifically. There were a few who I have not seen around the faculty before but here where the conference played its role. It introduces me to the seniors and they are really kind people. I even made a close senior friend, Ba Am. LOL! It's an honour. He is so smart. Other than the people from my own college, I made friends with the other law students from other universities such as UM, UKM, HELP, and others. It was a wonderful experience and hopefully I can be apart of that event again and again. It was so much fun!

Besides the conference, my family and I took a weekend break to Penang. We stayed at Hard Rock Hotel, Penang and I can tell you that it is the coolest hotel I have ever been to. I do really mean that. And and and.. the most interesting part is that the staff in the game room is HOT! Ahhhh! Unfortunately, I was too mesmerized by his hotness didn't get a chance to ask for anything. LOL. As if I have the guts to do so, right? Well, we did spend some time in the game room together. He taught me how to play golf on Wii. LOL. Ahhh! So HOT! Well, other than that the hotel itself is cool! Everything; the room, the pool, the cafe, the lounge, the staffs *wink*. Everything is cool! I want to go back some other time and probably get that number I didn't get before. LOL! *wink*

Other than that was the catch-up day with my old high school buddies. We had a BBQ at my house. It was the funnest thing to do when you want to catch up with your friends. You don't need fancy outings. What you need is a long long time to chit-chat! At first I was disappointed by the response I got from the people I invited. From 20++ people it turned out to only be 10 of us. How sad, right? I know but you know what IT WAS A BLAST! Everything happened for a reason right? So, I guess God did not let so many people because then it might be a chaos and the food might not be enough for everyone. Everything worked out smoothly and the food was just the right amount for everyone. It was PERFECT! And this time, I already know how to start the fire so we did not have a lot of time wasted just like that. PERFECT and I love hanging out with mah high school buddies. They are the coolest! So, the people; Shila, Pika, Gong, Nas, Salini, Sabby, Me, Ungku, and... Oh, I guess just 9. LOL. It was hella FUN though.

Lastly I think May has taught me how to miss someone or how to suddenly think about someone all the time without reasons. Not gonna elaborate on this. I am just too shy! *blushed*

May was great. Hope June will be more than just great. Can I hope for some miracle? Of course I can. So, I wish for a miracle!

Love,

MARL!