Back To The Way I Was One Month Ago

Shitty Shit!

I'm back to the way I was one month ago.

Kuantan people :- It is the way you have expected. No more "Oh, you lost weight"

No more of that and I am F-ing tired of it!

Goodbye!

Crappy,

MARL!

When Your Best Friend Just Left

Hey people,

How's raya? Great? Moderate? Poor?

You know how your friends will eventually make their own way to achieve their own goals? There will be a time where you will be separated for years and get back together for a reunion especially if they are working abroad. You will not get to meet them often. That's what happened to me today.

I had just sent off one of my BEST FRIEND, Annishka Asairinachan. My best friend since Standard 6. Me, Suzanna, Syahira, Mayuri and Salini went all the way to LCCT to send her off. As usual, I drove. Unfortunately, we did not spent so much time with her cause she was busy with her family, her stuff and her boyfriend so that was why we did not spent too much time with each other. However, she managed to treat us McDonalds but of course, with her 'not there'.

She is going to India to study in Dentistry. That has been her dream since she had her braces on. Well, she took it off months ago but still, that was the reason why she wanted to become a dentist. She was studying in Methodist College in Brickfields. As she finished there, she applied for Manipal India and she got in. Well, she is one SMART-kid! So, I had no doubt in her. I hope she will make it there. I know she will so I have no worries for her not-making friends cause she is a person who can make friends with anyone. Seriously. The only thing I am scared of is her eating habits. There might be changes and there might be some foods that she will need to adjust to and get used to. So, I hope she can do that. She has a quite sensitive stomach I can say. So, be careful yeah!

A little message for her:

Hey Nish,

Take care while you are there. Eat properly. Do not skip meal cause I know you will if you are too busy so don't forget to eat. Make good friends and don't mix with the wrong people cause you know how India is right. Remember that if you have any problems just tweet and we will all try to help although we are FAR FAR apart. Remember to always tweet and yes, I may not reply all your tweets. Don't force people to reply your tweet, goddammit! lol. Study hard and study smart. Don't get too stressed out cause then you will get really skinny. I have lots more in my mind right now but I am too lazy to type it out. So, my final say would be:

Love You! *hugs*

Raya.Final.Pressure.Stress.Can I Handle All?

Raya : YES

Final : Maybe Yes/ Maybe No

Pressure : I have grey hair already. and theres plenty of them

Stress : If it gets higher, I might blow up

Love,

MARL!

The Fear Really Is A Fear After All.

I told you NOT to step on the weighing machine. But, YOU DID! Look what has happened to you.

I asked: What happened?

Well, nothing.

I asked: Does it make any difference if I didn't step on it?

Hurmm, if you did not step on it. It won't move, then.

I said: That's obvious, isn't it? You need to put some weight on it for it to move. Duh! It's a WEIGHING MACHINE!

But, I told you not to measure yourself.

I asked: Why?

Because.....YOU HAVE GAINED...ahhhhh.....Gained....ahhhh

I asked: Gain what?

You should know, right?

I said: No, I don't know. What?

I seriously want to kick your ass right now, dummy! If you eat a-lot, what will you gain?

I said: Ohh. right. I know that.

*You guys get the picture, right?*

A few moments later.

I asked: What should I do now?

Figure it yourself. You were the ones that keep shoving food in your mouth.

I asked: But, don't you have any suggestion for me to get back to the way I was?

I think I have the answer.

I asked: WHAT?

Drink whatever that you have been drinking in the past months.

I said: YES! I know! 14 days challenge COMING UP! I love myself.

* A short dialogue between me and myself*

Love,

MARL!

Melaka The Historic State

It was a last-minute plan. Me and my family were heading back to KL from Muar (My dad's hometown). There are two options from Muar to KL. Its either we use the Tangkak way or Melaka way. As usual, my dad would ask me which way should we follow. Its not 'usual' but sometimes.

So, I decided that we use the Melaka way. I told my dad that I want to just go around Banda Hilir to just look around the city of Melaka. Its just a go-through thing. I don't have the intention to stop anywhere or even to get out from the car. What I wanted was to look around. However, as we passed by shops by shops, my dad saw a watch shop and he wanted to stop. Also, he saw the Equitorial Hotel nearby Dataran Pahlawan and other shopping and sight-seeing places. The one that got excited over these was my dad.

He decided that we would stay one night here in Melaka. So now, its US in Melaka. We will be heading back to KL tomorrow after the check-out time. What I'd missed? Huda's open house. Sorry Huda! I know I've promised but I can't make it tomorrow. Maybe next time. Sorry again!

p/s: had an awesome raya and its time for FINALs in Kuantan!

Love,
MARL!

My New Fear

I have a new fear

Fear that will affect myself so badly

Fear that will always make myself uncomfortable

Fear that will make me wanna do something about myself

Fear that can change my way of life

Fear...

I am in Fear

Fear...

Fear...

Fear of what?

Guess...

Fear of...

Guess again...

My new fear after this year's Aidilfitri

Its everybody's fear, I think

Fear of what?

FEAR OF...

STEPPPING ON THE WEIGHING MACHINE!!

A Memory Flashed Back

On my way back to Muar yesterday, my dad stopped at the R&R Seremban. It was filled with people. We can't even see the food that they sold, we can only see peoples' hand reaching for something.

My family decided to go to the other restaurants and we sat there for lunch. After we have finished eating lunch, me and my mum went to the toilet. As I was walking out from the toilet, there were a group of women entered the toilet. There were two 'pengkid' and two 'normal' ladies. I guess they are two couples. Who knows. I am just assuming. As one of the 'pengkid's went inside the toilet, another lady outside the group also wanted to enter the toilet and I saw her confused-look face. She looked at the signage and at the 'pengkid' lady simultenously. I was laughing in my heart and I just kept quite and smiled at the lady.

As I walked out I just shook my head cause I remembered that the 'pengkid' lady used to be ME! For some of you who don't know my past, I was a TOMBOY but NOT a 'pengkid'. Let me differentiate. A Tomboy-girl only dresses like guys and act like guys but they are STRAIGHT and for me, they will eventually change ( nearest example: ME). Differs with a 'pengkid' where they really think and trying to believe that they are guys/men. They don't have interest in men. They have love interest in women and they like women as men do. They coupled up with women- an actual women. That is the difference between a 'pengkid' and a tomboy-girl.

I used to dress like guys/boys. I walked like them. I acted like them. So, one day, I went to a toilet in a shopping mall. I was dressed with baggie pants, a baseball cap, a big-baggie shirt and a skateboard shoe. Get the picture yet? Well, as I walked out from the toilet, there was a little girl who wanted to enter the toilet. She saw me and she was so confused. She thought that she saw the right signage that the toilet that she was about to enter is a female toilet but the person who came out from it was a boy-like person. I can see the confused-face again yesterday. The little girl asked her mother if the toilet is the right toilet.

At that moment, I laughed but as time passed by I think that was the reason why I tried to change, although it was long time ago before I had the nerve to change. I am so happy that now I am like this but sometimes I missed being tomboy-like girl cause when we are like that, we don't care what we wear. We just wear a t-shirt, a jeans and that's it! We are done! Not like now where I will think about what to wear and does that go with the other and sort of like that. Well, you know what I mean, right? But, EVERYONE HAS GOT TO GROW! We can't be stuck young forever!

So, that's it for this post.

Love,
MARL!

Human Cruelty

Hey people of the world,

How's Raya? Mine was and IS GOOD! Get together with families and tomorrow I'll be heading back to KL. Can't wait to celebrate raya in KL with other family members and also friends. I can't wait to celebrate raya with my Kuantan friends as well. Yes, YOU! The excitement gets higher when I received Duit Raya from cousins, aunties and uncles. As I said, my raya IS GOOD and Marvelous (as Hakim said)

However, there are people who didn't get to enjoy their raya. Remember, there are people who didn't get to feel the enjoyment and the excitement of raya. They don't get to eat the delicious foods. And many others enjoying things on raya. As we are enjoying ourselves remember to the people who don't get to feel the privilege of raya.

As we speak, I am feeling sorry for the family of Sosilawati, an entrepreneur and the founder of a cosmetic product who was found missing on 30th August 2010 with other 3 males. The latest news I heard from the national news is that the police have found the place that 4 dead bodies were found yesterday. The police have not yet confirmed the identity of the deceased but they suspected that the bodies that were found are the four persons who were reported missing including Sosilawati. I will not continue commenting this case because I am scared that this will affect the case or I am giving false information to the public cause this is a public blog.

I just want to say that if the bodies found are these 4 persons where the police believed that they have been kidnapped, beaten, burnt and thrown away their ashes; the people who did these are NON-HUMAN! These people are CRUEL and they deserved to be Punish with the maximum punishment ever! I can't imagine how a human being has the heart to do all these things. I mean, killing is one thing but burn them is another thing.

I don't know if its the world now or its just a trend where 'if you have a problem with a person, kill them'. We see murder cases everyday in the news and newspapers. The last case where the father slaughtered his daughter - cruel murder. A guy killed his whole family and chopped his father's head and buried it else where - cruel murder. The trend for killing nowadays is not just stabbed people but it is the trend of CRUEL MURDER. Kill people with the most cruel way possible, don't you think? What is happening to the people? Are they getting insane day by day? or they just wanted to try something new? There is a news today in NST paper where they highlighted murder cases in Malaysia starting with the case of Mona Fandey to Nurin and the latest man slaughtered his daughter. If you have the time, find the article and read it. They actually gave the reasons why killers kill.

The same thing happened to Altantuya, where she was killed and they actually bombed her just because they wanted to destroy the evidence. What did the police found? Pieces of her flesh on trees and branches. She was bombarded into pieces. Can you see the cruelty of human now?

For the case of Sosilawati, I am too hoping that she is safe and so do her daughter as the reporters were asking her questions in the news. Although the police MIGHT have confirmed that the identity of the four bodies are them, why don't we just pray that its not them cause somehow the identity of the four bodies are still unidentified. We don't even know that the bodies are them or not. So, lets just hope for the best, aite!

And I think that it is still not too late to wish everyone,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN!

LOVE,
MARL!

Get'cha Head In The Game

I NEED TO LOSE A-BIT MORE!

NOT 'A-BIT' BUT LOTs MORE!

HOW?

Hella Fun!!

People, How do you do?

Good, I hope! It has been 4 days since I am back home and I am so so happy about it! No more lectures, no more pack foods, no more expensive taxis, no more three floors house. However, I miss those sometimes! Yes, I really do!

Yesterday, I had a little reunion with my high school girls. Miss them LOTS! We did an arrangement for buka puasa in Italiannese, Gardens. It was a hella of fun!!!! It was AWESOME-ly FUN! The best day, yet! The people that were there;

1. Mayuri

2. Syafiqah

3. Sabariah

4. Shahila

5. Alvena Ann Gomez

6. Jeyasree

7. Pui Yee

8. Shi Yun

and

9. Me, of course

Before I say anything, I would like to say sorry to Nicole J. Paul and Emica Wong for the last minute invitation. To Myra, sorry that you were not there darl. You missed alot and I miss you much much.

Me, Shila and Pika met at Sunway Pyramid first and then I drove to Mid Valley. Thank God both ways were not that bad. I mean there was no jam except for; IN the parking itself. So, that was not so bad! We took about 10 minutes from Sunway to Mid Valley but almost half-an-hour IN Mid Valley parking space. How bad is that. Afterwards, we hung around for a while while waiting for others to APPEAR! Mayuri was already there because she was working yesterday till 4.30pm. Basically, we were waiting for Sabby, Jey, Shi Yun and Alvena to come cause apparently Pui Yee too was already there and we met her first before others came. Let me just get to the point. The late comer was Alvena. We met her straight at Italiannese with her big bang and all until someone told her to fix her hair first before we continued chatting. Then, she had to go to the toilet just to fix her hair. Pity her. LOL!

Next, order time! We ordered three big main course and additional Pizza afterwards. We ate a-lot I can say. But, it was all worth it because we had so much fun. Fun as in, laughing out loud, treat the restaurant as a Mamak stall. We did our thing. Didn't care about other things. You know, catch up for past stories and all. I can say, I was impressed by my friends! They are all so GOOD now! Good courses and Good Life. I am so happy for them!

Next, CAMWHORE time!!! Yeah, we had a little camwhore session in the toilet. You know how Garden's toilets are always empty. So, we took a little time there and just cam-whored! Sounds awful, isn't it? But, that's what we call it! No offence! As we walked back-and-forth from Gardens to Mid Valley and vice versa, it was time for us to say good bye! But before that, I was eager to buy Boost drinks cause I have not had it for so long. Shila and Jey told me to buy it earlier but I refused cause I was so full at that time. I told them that I would buy it when we are heading back. Unfortunately, I was not able to buy it because by the time we were heading back, it was closed! *sob*

It's ok though. There's always the next time! The boost drink booth will not go anywhere.

Before I got home, I had to send Pika back to KL Sentral. Unfortunately, we went to the wrong way and we got lost and got into KL. The busy road of KL. At least, we got to see KL at night, right? Seriously, we were lost. I was just driving without thinking of the road. Finally, we found the way. Thank God! I guess we just have to be brave sometimes! Next stop, Shila's house. We had no problem after KL Sentral stop. Till I sent Sabby back too. On my way back, along LDP road, there were these three cars; Red car (can't really see what car), White Saga BLM, Another White care ( I think mitsubishi or something) and my car. We were kinda racing against each other. All of us were fast, I can say and near to each other. Speeding and rushing through the road. It was FUN! At that time, yeah but as I thought through it was kinda dangerous. But, whatever it was FUN!

I felt like I was in a race mode at that time. All other drivers were guys and I was the only girl there. WITH 'P'! As we reached at junctions, we were separated. And I finally got home. SAFE and SOUND! Thank you lots for the race, guys!!!

Final words, I AM SO HAPPY THAT WE GET TO HANG OUT, GIRLS! LOVE YA!

Love,

MARL!

First Day Back Home

Hey peeps,

I hope you are in your best condition and I pray for the best for you. As you all know, I am at home. I am finally back! Yes!!! Well, the thing is I am really glad to be back and I am really glad that I get to drive again. I miss Matteo so so much and I get to hang around with 'it' the whole day today.

However, when I am back that means I am back for my old routine. As a driver! That is normal. Send my brother to school and my mum to work. Go home or shopping malls then pick them up again. And that routine rotates everyday excluding weekends. It was not that bad before but let me tell you. The traffic was soo soo BAD today and I think it will be bad for the rest of the puasa month. That is NOT GOOD! Yes, puasa month we should be more patient. Well, not for this. I was not in a good mood today when I was on my way to-and-back from picking up my mum and my brother and it was all because of the traffic's fault!! hate it! Unfortunately, that's how it goes and that is how it will be for another one week.

Another bad news that I got here was about my 'baju raya'. They are OVERSIZE!! OMG! I don't know whether I was the one that lost weight or the person who made my clothes made it wrong. I think it is the second situation because the clothes are really big. Gosh. I don't know how am I gonna fix this. I either fix it as soon as possible or leave it and wear it just like that during raya. My choice, isn't it? Right~ Can someone suggest me a place to alter my clothes? Please!

Tomorrow will be SHOPPING DAY for me! I am really looking forward for it!

Love,

MARL!

If You Really Want It, Why Don't You Just Go For It?

Hey peeps,

How are you guys doing? For your information, I am now at the airport waiting for my 7.15pm flight to Kuala-la-la-la Lumpur! I can't wait to go home. It has been almost one and a half month since I'm home and that's a RECORD for me. I have never not-go-back for that long. The longest I've had was 3 weeks and that record has been broken. Yay for me! This holiday will take about 3 weeks more or less. Right after the holiday is the most important part of this semester that is FINAL EXAM!!! Yes, my final exam will be right after raya and that is NOT cool. Why? Cause I don't get to enjoy my raya celebration with ease and that's not good. Well, you know how to study law, right?

What I really want to talk about in my blog now is regarding the dean's visit yesterday. The dean of faculty of law came down to Kuantan yesterday for a talk and for satisfying some of the students heartfelt. She came with her cliques and gave their speeches on varies things. However, the highlight for the talk was all about MUET BAND 3. I know I might sound like I am taking the dean's side and not the students and again others will think that it is easy for me to say because I am not one of them. But, come one friends, most the questions been asked has already being answered by Madam Farah LAST SEMESTER. We all know why UiTM can't have another session of interview. We all know the reason why the requirement of MUET BAND 4 can't be reduced to BAND 3. We all know why but still some was not satisfied with whatever that has been said by Madam Farah and thus waited for the SAME ANSWER from the dean, herself.

Some might not still be satisfied with the answers given by the dean and her cliques but by hook or by crook friends. You still have to accept the fact that 'it might not be your faith'. Yes, it is easy for me to say this because "I am not one of the people" but people the wheels and always spinning. You might be at the top today but you will be below someone another day. You will not be successful all the time. That is just not how things work. I hear many arguments and many unsatisfied feelings from the students of UiTM regarding MUET requirements. And all they do was talk at the back.

People,

The lecturers have provided a platform for their students to express their unsatisfying feelings and what you guys did? I mean the hall was not even Half-full. Can you imagine that? How can a university with 300++ students have a small hall for a function and can't even fill up even half of the hall. How embarrassing is that? The dean might say that it's ok but you know that there was a sign of frustration with the students. If I am the dean at that time, I myself will feel a little bit frustrated with the student. Imagine, the dean was expecting to see a hall full with students but when she comes in there was only a half-full hall.

Students,

Why didn't you show up? I bet there are loads of question that you wanted to ask. Why didn't you show up? That is the question. I really thought that it is such a waste when the lecturers have provided us with the platform to meet the dean and ask questions but you didn't use it and just throw it off just like that. It is a waste.

Enough talking about this cause I know that this issue is sensitive towards some individuals. So, I better stop before I hurt people's feelings.

I just want to say that I am really sad that not all of us will make it to BLS. However, don't give up my dear friends. Allah has already planned your destiny and faith. Keep holding on to the spirit and Insya-Allah you will be successful in the future. For those who made it to BLS. Let's roll our sleeves up and start working! Be prepared for the challenge and as Madam Farah said, Enjoy the challenge!

Love,

MARL!