2 Incredible Days

Hey peeps,

We meet again. So, here I am writing for my blog again and trying to express my thought and to tell stories! Yeah, as you can see in the title; 2 Incredible Days. Yes, it has been a wonderful yet incredible days for me for the past 2 days. Why? Cause I get to hang out with my dearly friends from morning till night. The whole 2 days. With who? Suzanna Bono, Syafiqah and Ungku Natt.

Everyone knows that last Friday was a public holiday ; Wesak day and so all of us went for a Youth Carnival that was held at PWTC in KL. Me, Ungku and Suzanna all gathered at Suzanna's house around 11.00am. Then, I drove to PWTC and met up Syafiqah there. Honestly speaking, the carnival was not that fun. But then again, we went there just for the purpose of the Bazaar and not any other events. We were not that interested in other events other than the bazaar. We spent most of our time there at the bazaar- shopping. I didn't but anything cause then I don't have any money at the moment. I don't even have enough money to pay for the parking that cost RM 10.00. Thank God for Ungku, she paid for parking. Suzanna and Syafiqah left first for their other plans to meet up their other friends. Me and Ungku went back. I sent Ungku back first then straight home. After about 30 minutes resting at home, my family asked me to follow them to IKEA. Yeah, and so we went. Haih! I was really tired by that time cause I have been walking around like non-stop! Plus, driving!

Yesterday, Saturday. Again the same people all gathered at my house for our plan to go to another bazaar that was at Giza Mall, Kota Damansara. And again, I was the driver! yeah! I love driving around! Compared to the Youth's bazaar, this one was much bigger. And again, I didn't buy anything. I guess that I am not the type of person that buys from bazaar. I prefer shopping malls. LOL! I shop till I drop at a shopping mall but not at bazaars. I don't know how to get around at bazaars. Plus, bazaar is a place where they don't sell anything that fits me. So, yeah! Anyhow, moved on from there we went to IKEA to have lunch. Walked and walked till I feel like my legs are going off. Till night then we left Ungku there cause her boyfriends was going to pick her up. I dropped Syafiqah at Kelana LRT Station and me and Suzanna went straight to my house. I asked Suzanna to just stay at my house cause she said that she has night blindness and so I was afraid that she will not be able to drive plus that she's going to drive alone at night. But then, she decided to go back to her house. so, she didn't sleep over! That's OK, Gong! We will be having the sleepover at your house right? Which I am not sure I'll be able to go.

All and all! I am really glad that I had spent 2 days straight with my dearly friends that I love so so much! I will really miss them when I get back to Kuantan. Talk about Kuantan. I don't feel like going back there! But, I have to cause that is my future! That's all that I am thinking about everytime I said to myself that I don't want to go back to Kuantan. Due to that, I think that I'll be just fine!

p/s: Family dinner tonight! I don't know what to wear!!

.Trust.

Hey friends,

We meet again! I know it has been a long time but hey, I'm here now! So, what I want to talk about today is TRUST! Yeah, one of you readers might know this one, right Ain? Yeah. I saw your post. The truth is that I have been thinking on writing about this in a long long time. It's just that I have not yet have the time to write it. Cause, it has been a busy week and shocking too. You might want to know why do I want to talk about trust. Am I not trusting anyone? or someone has breached my trust upon him/her? Well, THAT'S NOT IT! I want to talk about trust the way that some people might not even thought about this before. Some of you might not noticed this before. Honestly, I have not noticed it before too until last Sunday. Based, on my friend's post, she said that trust is a very subjective thing to talk about. I trust you, you trust me and if you ever breached that trust, I will never trust you again. That kind of thing. Yes, trust will be talked about when it is within a relationship. Mom's trust towards her daughter or son and etc. Well, you know what I mean!

Ok! So, back to my kind of trust that I want to talk about. Have you ever thought about this? Whenever you started driving, you will put your hopes and your trust to any other driver on the road with you. For me, whenever I started driving, as soon as I start the engine I will put my hopes and trust upon other drivers out there. Well, don't you? You hope that the other cars won't hit you. You trust that they will be careful on the road. Am I right? That is so true although you are denying it. Please don't cause you know that THAT is TRUE! That is a HUGE part of TRUST we're putting there. We TRUST other drivers to be careful and put our lives on stake. Well, on the road, your lives will always be on stake. So, you trust the other drivers. Whenever you stop at a traffic light. You will trust the driver behind you to not knock your car. When you give a signal to turn right, you will trust the motorcyclist to slow down and give you way. Somehow, you will put your trust upon the other drivers. No matter the situation.

Unfortunately, I as a DRIVER have breached that TRUST! I do! Yes! And I am VERY disappointed! My family and some of my friends already know that I am not a slow driver. Well, sometimes when my car is full, I WILL slow down but when I am alone I can see no second and third lane. I can only see the FAST lane. That's what happen when you always want to drive fast and not to look at other cars. In the context of trust, the driver in front of me trusted me to not hit his car at the round-a-bout but then I breached his trust and knocked on his car! HARD! Both of us pulled over and I had to settle everything right there and then. Nothing that I can argue about cause it WAS my fault! And so, I accepted that and he accepted my apology with my CASH! ergh! And everything was finally DONE!

So, people I know that you want to move fast but beware that the other drivers trust you to not do anything wrong by hitting their cars. Keep that in mind cause I know some of you didn't even think of this before! Peace PEOPLE!

Big Splurge!

It is BIG SPLURGE day!!

Yeah, I am not that excited about it anymore since I saw the amount I spent today, yet. After I sent my brother to school, I went to Subang Parade for ear-piercing in my mind. But, as I got there I spent more than just piercing my ears. I POLISHED my car. I BOUGHT a belt, I BOUGHT a Boost drink and paid for expensive parking. So, I really did have a BIG SPLURGE day! It was really BIG!!! So, this is what I have been spending on:-

McDonald for my bro and myself - RM 17.90

Car Polish - RM 120.00

Ear Piercing - RM 12.00

Belt - RM 36.00

Boost Drink - RM 12.50

Parking - RM 4.00

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TOTAL - RM 202.40

p/s: I think more but that's all that I can think of now!

Brother-Sister Bonding Day

Hey peeps,

Happy to be writing again. I am good so far. With nothing to do. Hearing everyone is working. Plus, each and every single person I ask to hang out with keeps disappointing me (No offence). But, I am really really glad that I had to spend one whole day with my lil' brother. Yes, THE WHOLE day. Does that mean he didn't go to school? That's right! My mum is not at home, she is now in Langkawi for working purposes and so, it's just me and my dad here at home handling my brother. And I can see that, every single time my mum is not at home, the person that is still in school will not go to school and I don't know why. It has always been like that since I was little. Everytime my mum is not home, I will not go to school. Its not that I don't want to go to school but somehow I didn't. The situation now is quite different compared to my time, this time, my brother doesn't want to go to school. That is HIS fault. At the end, he did not go to school. What did we do?

Its BROTHER-SISTER BONDING TIME!!

I brought Hakim to One Utama to watch Shrek Forever After. It was AWESOME! I love the movie like damn much! It was HILARIOUS but sad in someways cause you know, it IS the end of Shrek. Right after finishing our movie time, we went straight to the bowling alley and played BOWLING! It was my brother's first time playing but he was already AWESOME and I can see some talent in you, kid! He does sort of has the bowling talent. He even scored 24 points in his second game. In his first, he scored 17. Not bad for a first timer and an eight year old kid! I am very proud of you, lil' bro! Basically, we DID have FUN together! It's just sometimes he was being really annoying. After bowling, we went to Pizza Hut for dinner and he had pizza and I had arrabiata. AWESOME!

While after, we headed home. For a moment there, I thought that we can just go home and take our good night sleep but I forgot something, Hakim has a music class that night. And so, I rushed through traffic to get home and took his music bag and head straight away to his music teacher's house. After one hour, we finally got home! yay!!

I can say that it was a really tiring day but I had so much FUN!

I know you did too, Hakim!!!

The top one is Hakim's the down one is mine!

AMAZING dance

Pyramid by Charice ft Iyaz

Shawty's love is like a pyramid (ooh)

We stand together till the very end (eh ooh)

There'll never be another love for sure (ooh)

Iyaz and Charice let we go

Stones, heavy like the love you've shown (shown)

Solid as the ground we've known (known)

And I just wanna carry on

We took it from the bottom up (no no no)

And even in a desert storm (yeah)

Sturdy as a rock we hold (oh)

Wishing every moment froze

Now I just wanna let you know

Earthquakes can't shake us

Cyclones can't break us

Hurricanes can't take away our love

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock

It feels just like it's heaven's touch

Together at the top (at the top baby), like a pyramid

And even when the wind is blowing

We'll never fall just keep on going

Forever we will stay, like a pyramid

Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh (ooh)

Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh (ooh)

Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh eh (oooh)

Cold (cold), never ever when you're close (close)

We will never let it fold (fold)

A story that was never told

Something like a mystery (yoh! )

And every step we took we've grown

Look how fast the time has flown

A journey to a place unknown

We're going down in history

Earthquakes can't shake us (oh)

Cyclones can't break us (oh)

Hurricanes can't take away our love

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock (hey! )

It feels just like it's heaven's touch

Together at the top, (at the top baby) like a pyramid

And even when the wind is blowing (wind is blowing)

We'll never fall just keep it going (keep it going)

Forever we will stay, like a pyramid (eh oh)

Like a pyramid girl let me show you

That I love you so much

That we gonna get through (oh oh)

Even when there's storms

I will never go, Ima be the one to keep you safe (hey)

Before was our love back it up more than enough

Holding on to one another be the cover when it's rough (oh oh)

Mother nature (hey) or disaster won't stop at happy ever after

Pyramid, keep it going (like a pyramid, like a pyramid)

Oh oh ooooh (like a pyramid, like a pyramid)

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock (solid rock)

It feels just like it's heaven's touch (oooh)

Together at the top (at the top baby, at the top girl), like a pyramid

And even when the wind is blowing

We'll never fall just keep on going (keep it going)

Forever we will stay (Charice), like a pyramid (what what)

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock

It feels just like it's heaven's touch

Together at the top (at the top baby, at the top girl), like a pyramid (pyramid)

And even when the wind is blowing

We'll never fall just keep it going

Forever we will stay (ooh), like a pyramid

Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh

Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh

Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh eh

Me

What is Love?

My friend asked me to write about love. What is love from my point of view? My fantasies of love? Characteristics that I like? Anything about love. And so, I am writing about it now.

First of all, everyone need to be loved. Everyone need love. Each and every person in this world has someone that they really love. I bet you that you will not find a single person in this world who does not love any other person in his world. He must have love or even loved someone. Love is a very subjective thing to talk about. You asked me what is love, I might answer it differently as the next person you will ask. The definition of love differs from one person to another. It is more difficult when you ask what is true love. No one could answer that perfectly. Back to the question :

First question : What is love from my point of view?

Love is a need. Love is something that we cannot resist and cannot run from. It is everywhere and will be with us all the time. It's like the cupid will never leave our side. It will always be there with us no matter where we go and no matter how far we want to run from it. It will still be with us. Love does not need to be related to only relationships; parents and kids, husband and wife, brother and sister, relatives, friends, student and teachers; it can also be related to other things. As I said love is a subjective thing to talk about. Love can also be related to our love to our nation, love to books, love to education, love to music and etc. In other words, love is passion. How passionate are we with someone or somethings? That's what it is. PASSION! LOVE = PASSION! That's Love for me!

Second questions : My fantasies of love?

Just like I have mentioned earlier on that everyone need love. Love is something that we cannot run from. So, so do I. I cannot run from love. No matter how long it takes no matter how long I kept it, it will always come back to me. Of course I want to be loved. No one doesn't. I want to be loved and I want to love. Share whatever I have with that person. Be there for a person that needs my attention and vice versa. He will be there when I'm feeling lonely. He will comfort me whenever I'm feeling stressful and so on. So does everyone. I have not yet think about how my love life should go and so I don't really have my fantasies of love. I just hope that it will be going smoothly and I'll be happy with the person that I am with.

Third question : Your dream wedding?

My dream wedding? I have this fantasy of having a wedding at pool side. 'Pelamin' will be in the water, floating of course with a runway. Not carpet but non-slippery glass. See through runway so that you can see the water under. The 'pelamin' will be decorated with white roses all over with garden theme. A little bit of red roses that will pop the colour so that it will not only be white. Me wearing an elegant dress cream colour maybe or even red or light navy blue. Don't really dreamed about the dress yet. With my guy with tuxedo or white baju melayu and really nice 'sampin' that will make it pop! The 'pelamin' will be at the center of the pool and with red and white roses being spread around the pool in the water. Plus, small IKEA candles that floats. The pool is now full with roses petals. There are also petals on the runway being spread around. I don't want a big wedding reception. Just a small one. Maybe around 300-500 people only. I think that's a-lot too. Just a small-intimate wedding. Not too crowded and have cozy feeling. Only close family and friends. So, that will feel very intimate and cozy plus romantic. I love that. But, what my mum always said is this.

' Hai. susah jugak nak buat wedding kecik2 macam tu sebab anak mama ni nanti nak jadi menteri. Menteri kene ajak beribu orang. Stadium la jawabnyer.'

Quite true though! ; And so, that's my dream wedding!

Fourth question: Characteristics of the guy I like?

Simple is better. I don't mind if that guy is not super-rich or even rich. I don't mind if he is not handsome or hot. As long as he has a good heart. That is the most important thing in a man. A good heart is an A+++ in a man. Even more than that too. That's where happiness in a relationship begins. A good heart. A guy must be loving, caring and understanding. Really do understand what I want and so I will try my hardest to understand him. He must love kids. I know that you might wonder why is it so important for a guy who loves kids for me. Whenever a guy or even a person loves kids, that really shows that they are loving and caring. If you only tell me that you are loving and caring but you don't even like kids then forget it. I know you are bluffing. A guy who can really play with kids, never get tired of them, is my number one choice. Don't you find it sexy when you see a guy playing with a kid? Especially when there are having so much fun laughing and giggling around. I find it very amusing. Next, I would be really grateful if I find a guy who doesn't smoke. It is OK if he used to smoke but when he's with me he stops. Will love him even more for that effort. But, DO NOT lie about that cause I can always figure it out. My nose and my breathing system is very sensitive with smokes smell. They can always detect the smoke. Adventurous is my next choice. Brave enough to take a risk. Plus, loves travelling but travel with me not by himself or with his friends. Because I love to travel and so I need someone that will travel with me where ever I go. My travelling companionship I can say! Other than that, if he plays any instrument then that will be a ++ but if he's not then I don't really mind. Loves animal is another way to show that that person is loving and caring. Other things will be the same as other people would want their partners to be. Loyal, Funny etc etc. And so, that's it!

That's the end of the questions. So, that's LOVE for me!!

Spreading the love,

MARL!

Immediate Need for Reading

My english is getting worse, don't you think?

For once I believed that my english has gotten better but now it went worse again.

So, it is an EMERGENCY need for PLENTY of READING MATERIALS!

ENGLISH, I mean!!!

This is what I am sure of. My English (communication) is GETTING WORSE TOO!!!!!

GOSH! Need some HELP!!!!!

There's No Need for Planning

This always happened. I mean for everyone. Planning is NOT my thing. Everything that needs planning is not my thing. Exactly what had happened today. At first, I made a plan with my cousins to go for a picnic but it seemed like everyone was not that into it. They have other things to do. Well, other people have plans too. I am not blaming them. It's just that sometimes plans will not work. That's where the quotes ' Kita merancang, Allah yang menentukan'.

I truly believes that quote.

And so, my plans with my cousins was out of my schedule cause no one respond. So, it was considered OFF! Today morning, my other cousin, the one that I always hang out with (twice to three times a week) messaged me and asked me whether I have plans today. I said no. And guess what? We went for a picnic!! I was soo soo HAPPY! At last! I get to go for a swim in the waterfall/river! Natural/pure/clean water! I used to only swim in swimming pool so this was really a satisfaction. By the way, the name of the place is Sungai Tua in Selayang near Batu Caves. Before going for the waterfall, we went out searching for bodykits and sport-rims for my cousin's car. Yeah! She wants to customize her car for a reason that she doesn't love that car but she will after she has customized it. Yeah, well! It's all up to her. I picked out one sport-rims for her that is Black-Pink! It is cool but I don't really think it'll suit the colour of her car. Well, she has to make the decision, not me! After that, straight to the waterfall but before we stopped at KFC to buy some food cause you know why. I have stated why before. We will get hungry immediately after we swim.

The place was soo soo cool! I loved it! It was soo much better than FRIM. There's like NO ONE there and so there is some privacy for us, don't you think? Loved it! I had scratches from the trip due to my fall on the rocks. But that's ok. Nothing to worry about. Pictures will be uploaded soon as the pictures are not with me. All are with my cousins. Will get it from her soon.

Basically, that's all that I want to talk about. Nothing else. By the way, nail polish colour for today is DARK BLUE!

Love,

MARL!

And Then We Fall

Yes peeps,

You heard that right. We fall! Once again in China's hand. We fall and fall. It was 3-0 margin. It was sad hearing that Malaysia lost since I can't watch it live. Sad Sad but I did say that I did not put any high hopes for Malaysian teams because they were kind of not-so-good in the past 2 days. And so, Finals will be between China and Indonesia. Who do you support? Me..the team who wins! LOL!

p/s : I still love Malaysia teams!

Malaysia in Semi-Final

Yes, all of us know about this. Malaysia is IN the semi-finals for Thomas Cup 2010. Many thanked Hafiz Hashim for this. After the lost of Wong Choon Han and our doubles team, Hafiz Hashim did make us proud in bringing Malaysia into the semi-finals. He has shown us that he really wants this after his shame-lost to Japanese player world-rank 217th compared to him 22nd world-rank. How can he lost to that man, I wonder. He didn't looked like he plays his heart out. And so, he has returned the favour to Malaysia yesterday for winning the game against Denmark that automatically qualifies Malaysia into the Semi-Final. Yes! Thank you to you, Hafiz.

Anyhow, I am wondering, can Malaysia get into the Finals? This is a group-competition and not an individual game I want to remind you of. We can put our hope up for our national badminton start, Datuk Lee Chong Wei but it all depends on the whole group. We have to win against China today. Because from what I'm seeing right now, we have a gold-opportunity in this game. At this moment, I can see Indonesian future in finals because they have already won 2 games against Japan and this is a bright opportunity for them to get into the finals. If Malaysia win today against China, we do have a really really bright-gold-opportunity in winning Thomas Cup 2010. I am not saying that Indonesia is not good but our main rival is China. Indonesian's players do look like they really want it based on Hidayat's and the double team's game just now. They played really really well, I can say. Really good! So, they might have a shot into the Finals but what I am concern now is Malaysia. Can they beat China? At this moment, I can only put my hopes on Chong Wei, Koo Kien Keat & Tan Boon Heong and most probably Hafiz Hashim. Cause apparently, Choon Han and the other double team did not play well for the last 2 days. Hope they can play well today.

Go Malaysia!!!!!

Mystery Behind It

Have you ever wonder the true reason why people told you NOT to take a shower after you have eaten? They always asked you to take your shower first before you eat. Usually, your parents would say this:-

' Jangan mandi lepas makan. Kalau nak makan pegi mandi dulu'

' Kalau makan dulu baru mandi nanti perut buncit. Tak lawa.'

Well, I think that's just a reason to scare you up. Yeah! I think I know the real reason why you can't eat before you take your shower. This concept can be related to how you feel after you swim, after you enjoy waterfall swim, anything that involves swimming in water. What do you feel after you swim? Hungry? yeah! That's right. Each and everyone will say the same thing. Whenever you went for a swim, automatically after that session of yours you will feel your stomach craving for food. I think whenever our body get in contact with water. Like showering, swimming we will get hungry easily. So, for me that is why we CAN'T eat before taking our shower cause we will be hungry after the shower although we have had big dinner/lunch before showering. Don't believe me? Try it. Experiment with it. Especially with swimming. You will feel hungry immediately after you swim.

Love,

MARL!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYIRA!

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY SYAHIRA!!

LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SOO SOO MUCH!

GOOD LUCK FOR EXAMS

BALIK LA CEPAT!!!!

Falling For You by Colbie Caillat

I don’t know but

I think I maybe

Fallin’ for you

Dropping so quickly

Maybe I should

Keep this to myself

Waiting ’til I

Know you better

I am trying

Not to tell you

But I want to

I’m scared of what you’ll say

So I’m hiding what I’m feeling

But I’m tired of

Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time

Just thinking about ya

I don’t know what to do

I think I’m fallin’ for you

I’ve been waiting all my life

And now I found ya

I don’t know what to do

I think I’m fallin’ for you

I’m fallin’ for you

As I’m standing here

And you hold my hand

Pull me towards you

And we start to dance

All around us

I see nobody

Here in silence

It’s just you and me

I’m trying

Not to tell you

But I want to

I’m scared of what you’ll say

So I’m hiding what I’m feeling

But I’m tired of

Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time

Just thinking about ya

I don’t know what to do

I think I’m fallin’ for you

I’ve been waiting all my life

And now I found ya

I don’t know what to do

I think I’m fallin’ for you

I’m fallin’ for you

Oh I just can’t take it

My heart is racing

The emotions keep spinning out

I’ve been spending all my time

Just thinking about ya

I don’t know what to do

I think I’m fallin’ for you

I’ve been waiting all my life

And now I found ya

I don’t know what to do

I think I’m fallin’ for you

I’m fallin’ for you

I can’t stop thinking about it

I want you all around me

And now I just can’t hide it

I think I’m fallin’ for you (x2)

I’m fallin’ for you

Ooohhh

Oh no no

Oooooohhh

Oh I’m fallin’ for you

p/s : Honestly, this is what I'm feeling right now!

Shocking.

Hey peeps,

It's been a long time since I actually write in this blog of mine. Whatever that I posted before was not a story of my life but it was more on what I'm doing and etc. But, not actual writing. Therefore, I want to update you people who are reading this about what I did today and of course in writing form. LOL!

The normal routine starts as I opened my eyes today. Normal thing like shower, send my brother and my mum to school and work respectively. At about 5.45pm, I'll be out again to pick up both of them back. In between, usually I'll be at home doing nothing except for dance, online, watching TV, sing, making songs etc. So, today after I have done all my duty I went straight to Subang Parade with intention of sending my car to the car wash shop and so I did. My car is Sparkling Clean now. Well, currently before it gets raining. As soon as I parked my car at the shop there's a man kinda old I can say. Maybe he is in his middle 50s or older. I kinda not know. All he did was smiled. That's fine. I have no problem with that. After everything has settled, I went in Subang Parade and had my walk-around thing. My first pit-stop was MPH cause that'll always be my first stop in Subang Parade. I did not buy anything, just yet! Next pit-stop, Rock Corner but before that my real intention was going into the pharmacy next to RockCorner to buy my mum a comb. But, they were out of stock and so I went in the RockCorner and saw Charice's album. For those who does not know who Charice is. Charice is a Filipinas that was discovered by a friend of Oprah that brought her to Oprah and she was introduced to the whole world for her AMAZING singing Talent. For the record, she sang with Celine Dion in one of Celine's concert. What an honour! Well then, she is quite a singer I can say. Beautiful, powerful voice for a teenager. Well, she's almost 18 now I guess. Never quite know her age. And so, I bought that album, Charice's album for RM40.90. OH! I know I kinda don't need it but I still bought it! LOL!

Ok, move on to the next pit-stop. BOOST! My new FAVOURITE drink! OMG! It is SOO SOO GOOD! I love love BOOST now. BOOST is my replacement drink for BUBBLE TEA! BOOST is a drink kiosk that sells healthy fruit juice/smoothies/ shakes etc. LOVE LOVE! I had CRAZY BERRY (if i'm not mistaken) today. I had Mango Magic yesterday. Yes! I went to Subang Parade yesterday and also today. Ok! LOVE!

Next, bought my mum her comb and so it was time for me to go back to my car. Still remember the guy/old guy I was talking about just now? Yeah. he was there too. He started asking me all sorts of question by using the word 'U' with me as if I am the same age as he is. I don't mind if he wants to use 'U' as regard to me but the tone that he used was weird. Really weird. He asked me whether I'm working or not today. Well, I said I am still studying. Where? Kuantan. And so on. In between our 'weird' conversation, the car wash guy gave him his car keys and so he can basically go already. As he said thank you to the car wash guy and 'byebye' to me, he actually, how can I say this..Touched? me. Really weird. I really did feel weird at that moment. Really. I pull my head out to see the car that he brings and his car was Mercedes Benz. At that moment I was thinking that he might be some 'Datuk' or something and it strikes in my head that no wonder there's so many Datuks having second, third wives. yeah! I really did feel something and weird that moment. Ergghhhhh...

End of that story. I hope I will not meet such man anymore. PLEEEEAAAAASSSSSEEEE!!!

Love,

MARL

Have you ever...?

... feel like your whole world is empty?

... feel lonely?

... feel like jumping off a plane?

... feel like kicking someone really really hard?

... feel like in need of someone?

... feel like dumping your head into the water and hopes you can breathe without air?

... feel like telling everyone how you feel?

... feel like doing bad stuff that you have no guts to do it before?

... feel like going for a long lonely ride?

... feel like smacking people's head like no one's business?

... feel like yelling?

... feel like throwing off your laptop down the stairs?

... feel like breaking everything that is in your house?

... feel like in a dire need of someone special in your life?

... feel like smacking your guitar really hard so that it'll break?

... feel like going to a beach and just lay down and relax?

... feels like going to a beach and scream as hard as you can?

... feel like crying?

... feel like jumping off a bungee jump?

... feel like running the whole day?

... feel like you are really fat and no one cares about you?

... feel like you disappointed yourself?

... feel like you let everyone down?

... feel like you're a loser?

... feel like you are a winner that no one wants you to be?

... feel like a leader that no one likes?

... feel like a total shame?

... feel like you've done something wrong that you have absolutely no idea a bout?

... feel like you are not yourself?

because, honestly speaking : I am feeling kinda all the above right now!

Nothing To Do? This What Happens

I Don't Believe You by Pink

I Don't Believe You lyrics

I don't mind it

I don't mind at all

It's like you're the swing set

And I'm the kid that falls

It's like the way we fight

The times I've cried

We come to blows

And every night

The passion's there

So it's got to be right

Right?

No I don't believe you

When you say don't come around here no more

I won't remind you

You said we wouldn't be apart

No I don't believe you

When you say you don't need me anymore

So don't pretend to

Not love me at all

I don't mind it

I still don't mind at all

It's like one of those bad dreams

When you can't wake up

It looks like you've given up

You've had enough

But I want more

No I won't stop

Because I just know

You'll come around

Right?

No I don't believe you

When you say don't come around here no more

I won't remind you

You said we wouldn't be apart

No I don't believe you

When you say you don't need me anymore

So don't pretend to

Not love me at all

Just don't stand there and watch me fall

Because I, because I still don't mind at all

It's like the way we fight

The times I've cried

We come to blows

And every night

The passion's there

So it's got to be right,

Right?

No I don't believe you

When you say don't come around here no more

I won't remind you

You said we wouldn't be apart

No I don't believe you

When you say you don't need me anymore

So don't pretend to

Not love me at all

I don't believe you

Your Love (original)

This is an original song by me specially for my mum. It's for Mother's Day. I know she'll laugh if she hear this but doesn't matter. I don't know how to tell her straight to her that I love her so this is the way to say that to her.

To you guys. It's shaky cause this is the first time I actually record it and the audio is not so good. Guitar sound might not sound good cause of the mic. I don't have nice voice though. So yeah. Sincerely from the heart.

Lyrics

Couldn't live
Couldn't live without your love
Oh yes... your love

When you hold me in your arms
I love you even more
Oh... love you even more

I can't find the words that can describe
My feeling... oh...oh...

Your love, your love, your love
Be strong, Stay strong
I'll be here for you x2

You're beautiful
You're beautiful in my eyes
No one can ever replace you
In my heart... my heart

Your love, your love, your love
Be strong, stay strong
I'll be here for you

When you hug me
I know you love me
When you scold me
I love you even more....

Chorus x2

I just wanna say
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY
and I Love You
Love You...

Love,
MARL!

AIM17

What can I say about AIM17? It is a prestige and well-known award in Malaysia. For an artist to receive an award from AIM is the one big thing in their career sort of things in Malaysia. It's like they have achieved their goals kinda thing. First thing first I would like to say that I went to AIM17 yesterday with my bestie Syafiqah. And, I did not get the ticket on my own. I got it from Wanie my friend from UiTM. She won one quiz and she won the ticket unfortunately she is in Penang and so she can't make it to the award. Thus, she gave the tickets to me since I am the one who asked her. LOL! Ok and so, it was held at PWTC and pretty much a cool place to have an award show going on. Everyone dressed up fabulously. Before going for it I was so afraid that my outfit will be so 'over' but since I got there and I saw everyones' outfit I was so so relieved cause I was not 'over'. There are other people who are much much 'over-the-top' than me. My picture will be uploaded soon here. Pika wore a simple outfit too. (picture). So, we both kinda matched actually. I didn't realize that there yesterday but I did today as I looked at the pictures we took at the event. Reminder here that we did not take any picture with any artist that we met. Kinda lazy to just go to people and ask whether we can take photos of them.

We went to the hall straight without worrying about who walks on the red carpet and so on. We were like in our own world chatting and catching up stuff that we missed about each other. Chatting bout our past and so on. So, we didn't actually care about who walks in front of us etc. Move on to the show shall we?

I want to say that I LOVE THE OPENING with SITI&KD and AFDLIN&ADIBAH singing. That was AWESOME!!! Seriously. Who missed it, you missed BIG! That was INCREDIBLE! Overall performance was Good for me. I mean the whole award show. It might look boring in TV but it was good there in the hall. When you are in the real situation the environment is different and so you will be more into it than you do when you are only watching it. My rating for performance :- *I can't remember all performance but I'll try to rate the best and the worst*

1. FAIZAL TAHIR

2. HIP HOP PERFORMANCE BY POINT BLANC, AHLI FIQIR N ALTIMEET & DJ FUZZ

3. AFDLIN & ADIBAH FOR OPENING

4. SITI & KD FOR OPENING

5. SHEILA MAJID, JACLYN AND KAREN KOK

6. AIZAT & YUNA

7. ZEE AVI

8. VINCE - bad because of dancers

9. ANDREW TAN - bad because of dancers

* I think there's more and because I didn't remember them that means there are forgettable.*

Worst award presenter would go to :-

1. MAWI

2. THE GUY WHO PRESENTED FOR KEMBARA AWARD

3. ONE MODEL - can't remember her name

4. THERE'S MORE. I JUST CAN'T REMEMBER

Presenters are supposed to be the kind of person that speaks very confidently in front of live audience or even if it is recorded, they need to be CONFIDENT and from what I saw yesterday many of the presenters that were selected to present the award were not confident at all. They read scripts as in they are in school. Even school kids can read better I think. At least with good intonation. What they did were only reading the scripts given, did not even look into the camera/ audience and that's it. Some of them even talked nonsense up there. It looked so unprofessional for me. It does not matter if u stutter but at least look professional. From what I saw, they were like a full bunch of school kids that wants to be on TV but doesn't know how to present themselves well. This does not go to all the presenters but most of them. Watch any Hollywood awards, their presenters come out and say their lines although with scripts with intonation and feeling it as I can say plus confidence. Not just say the script out loud just like that. Whatever that we say, we need to put some emotions in it. And I can't see or feel that in some of the presenters. I like watching the Hollywood awards because their presenters do not look like they were forced going up there and giving the award. They look so professional and at least make an effort to memorise their script. And I didn't see any of the presenters last night that make an effort to memorise their lines. If any of them do that, that person is a professional. She/He can bring the script with her/him but does not read it like school kids do and make contact with the audience. I am very dissapointed with the presenters lined-up. I don't think that some of them are even appropiate to give certain awards. Plus, I think that some of them do not even deserves to present an award and I will not say who here. This is the one thing that I am dissapointed about and I hope it'll get better next year.

Back to the positive part of the show. I LOVE LOVE LOVE AFDLIN AND ADIBAH. IF CAN, JUST MAKE THEM THE PERMANENT HOSTS OF A.I.M. They were so FUNNY and Professional. Jokes that they made were not stupid jokes. Not lame jokes either. Not many hosts can do that kind of jokes. Jokes that do not hurt people. Jokes that do not irritate people and etc. I love them and they should stay as the hosts of AIM. They were even funnier during the commercial break. They kind of make the hall happening every time they speak. Without them speaking, the hall will be so dull. Just keep them, will you?! The whole environment was good. Nothing to complain about that. Overall it was GOOD AND ENTERTAINING! It's just that I hope the people that work behind this would realise their mistakes on choosing the presenters and will do better selection next year!

I HAD FUN!!

p/s : THANK YOU TO KAK NANA FOR GETTING THE TICKETs FOR ME!